The thought of suicide gives me so much relief. Also, will police visit me if i purchase SN in the UK

[depressedsoul]

I live in the UK and am a UK resident. I always thought the authorities gave you more leeway/freedom in America, they wouldn't be on your case. I am worried because I'm concerned the police have info. on my mental health and I have wait at least 25 days for them to get back to me.
I just want to be free of suffering and SN is a relatively painless way to go. I can die in the comfort of my home. I envy celebrities who ctb'd. Matthew Mindler left this hell.