the thought of hope

[Shinobu]

I think hope as a concept is just so stupid and cruel. Life is down the worst its ever been and you wan't to die so bad. but then something good happens small or large and all of a sudden your feeling good again hopefull even just for when things are going up to come crashing down again and it hurts even more. The idea of hope is cruel to me because no matter how much hope you get theres always going to be something to bring you down again, hurt you even more. Just thinking about it sucks and just ruins the idea of life for me as a whole. I dont want to continue getting hurt just as i start to feel better because it hurts even more.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, any hope in this cruel world is certainly just a delusion to lead to more suffering once one is forced to confront the harsh reality of this existence. Existing truly is something so hopeless and dreadful, and I think that hope is a way to torment many people.