
MyShadow
Torn between fixing and ending my life
- Aug 27, 2025
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Yesterday, I felt better. Not amazing. Not "cured". Just better. The sun was out and it was a beautiful day. It didn't start out that way. The anxiety had been piling up the day before because I had to work and lead people and there were so many unknown variables. But when I woke up, the weather was spectacular and the day just came together beautifully. It was a day worth facing.
The hardest part was going "home" to a house that is full of strangers. I really miss my old life. I miss my kids and dogs. I miss having purpose. Because of the traumatic events of the past year, I don't know what the future holds for me and that still scares me.
But for now, it was good to feel the sun on my face.
The hardest part was going "home" to a house that is full of strangers. I really miss my old life. I miss my kids and dogs. I miss having purpose. Because of the traumatic events of the past year, I don't know what the future holds for me and that still scares me.
But for now, it was good to feel the sun on my face.