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failureofahuman

failureofahuman

Born failure, live failure, die failure
Nov 1, 2024
91
I can't handle it. I regret so many things and I despise myself. I despise how far I've fallen. I'm never going to be worth anything again. It's all over. I keep on thinking of these painful instances in my past and I just hate myself. I hate the type of person I am, I hate how I burden people and constantly embarrass myself. Everyone hates me, and if they don't hate me, it's because they just don't know what I'm like. I've fucked up all of my chances of ever being truly loved or accepted in this life. I'm the fucking scum of the earth, just disgusting. I'm so so so so so disgusting. I feel very sorry to everyone for not having killed myself yet. The world would be better off without a piece of shit like me. I'm degraded and dirty and worth nothing.
 
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SafferGuy

Member
Oct 27, 2023
52
My past also haunts me
 
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crocune

Student
Nov 27, 2024
141
Op are you me
 
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particularrodent

Member
Jan 4, 2025
79
have just been thinking about it myself. an ugly life so ugly lived
 
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Valhala

Valhala

Arcanist
Jul 30, 2024
497
My past is where I am stuck, what I live in and why I want CTB.
 
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skylight7

Member
Aug 16, 2024
77
I know how you feel.
 
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Young

Young

Student
Dec 8, 2024
111
I know how you feel.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
To hard to listen in the present when the past is always haunting you
 
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mya_

mya_

Not in this lifetime
Jun 13, 2024
62
I'm also haunted, idk what to do
 
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Salting the wounds

Salting the wounds

Member
Dec 2, 2024
87
I feel exactly the same way, we can exchange ideas privately if you wish
 
atrophy

atrophy

I’m tired of squinting
Jan 4, 2025
43
I regret my past which haunts me almost everyday; my future is bleak, hopeless and I can't even see it and my present is suffering so I understand.
 
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