the pain of living is too much now

[404]

for the past few days i always have a mental breakdown and i always scream and cry

i have to hide all of this from everyone so that no one will know that i have a problem and "help" me with it

doing this everyday is so painful already

if only my friend didn't leave me i don't have to suffer so much...
i miss them a lot

 

[アホペンギン]

I feel sorry for you, i also have to bottle up my feelings so people wont be worried about me. And if they knew i had a problem, i doubt they would do anything about it. The only people who are keeping me going are my friends but they dont know of my intentions and i doubt i will ever tell them, in fesr that they will leave me just like your friend did.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really awful and tiring what you go through, existence is just too cruel.