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m3nhera

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I know it will never go away. It's hard for me to accept though. I can't believe I have to live like this for the rest of my life, unless I ctb. But that brings its own problems. I wish everything wasn't so painful. I just want to know how it feels for this pain to go away. It almost never does. I feel like existing is just constant agony and torture for me. Does anyone know how to make this go away without suicide? Or is that the only real option? Everyone's different though. I'm aware it's my choice at the end of the day.
 
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ClownWorld2023

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Sleeping for as long or as often as possible.
 
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Sleeping for as long or as often as possible.
I can't do that, I have to go to school and do chores and talk to my friends and such. I can only sleep a normal amount.
 
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Jello Biafra

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Physical pain?

Emotional pain?

Psychological?

Maybe if you provide a few more details as to what it is that's bothering you so much, others here might be able to offer some suggestions.
 
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Physical pain?

Emotional pain?

Psychological?

Maybe if you provide a few more details as to what it is that's bothering you so much, others here might be able to offer some suggestions.
What's the difference between psychological and emotional pain? But yeah either one of those, I wish people understood how bad mental suffering can be. How do I get rid of it?
 
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What's the difference between psychological and emotional pain? But yeah either one of those, I wish people understood how bad mental suffering can be. How do I get rid of it?

I had assumed psychological pain would be like a cognitive disorder like depression or ADHD, and emotional pain would be something related to like losing a loved one or something - I don't know, I guess they could be considered the same.

Are you depressed? Or anxious or something?

I agree that mental suffering is horrible - I'd much rather put up with physical problems as mental suffering can be so debilitating.

As to getting rid of it, I think that starts with realistic expectations. It's not just going to all disappear at the snap of the fingers - it takes baby steps, little by little. But the good news is if you can even find one second of your day where you feel even a teensy bit better, taht means the possibility is there - if you can do it for a half of a second, where you just don't feel completely miserable, that means you can do it for 3 seconds, then 5, and eventually a minute, then an hour, and so on and so forth.

All you need for this to happen is to recognize that the possibility exists. By acknowledging that, this possibility actually starts to change your neurological structure (neuroplasticity) - meaning your brain physically starts to change.

The most important thing I can say to you, is that getting better requires effort. But it's possible. Just accept it's possible - that's all you need to get your foot in the door.

Are you bothered all day long by depressive thoughts, or an over active brain that won't let you rest? Try this:

Try going about your day, or doing things at home, and only looking out of the corners of your eyes. This is difficult at first, because your vision keeps going back and forth between seeing out of the corner of your eye, to looking straightforward normally. However, as I said above, you can in fact do this for a second or two before your vision reverts back to the front. If you put in the effort, you will be able to do it for a few more seonds, and eventually, for extended periods of time. You just have to put in the effort.

What this does is force your brain to be occupied 100% by this task - it leaves no room for intrusive, depressing, or anxious thoughts. It might sound silly or ridiculous, but I encourage you to try it when you feel at your worst and work at it a little bit. You will find that afterwards you feel so much more relaxed. The effort required at first will disappear, until you can do this automatically to take your mind off of things. So don't just think that because it's hard at first, or a pain in the ass, that it will always be like that. It will little by little, get easier and easier.
 
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I had assumed psychological pain would be like a cognitive disorder like depression or ADHD, and emotional pain would be something related to like losing a loved one or something - I don't know, I guess they could be considered the same.

Are you depressed? Or anxious or something?

I agree that mental suffering is horrible - I'd much rather put up with physical problems as mental suffering can be so debilitating.

As to getting rid of it, I think that starts with realistic expectations. It's not just going to all disappear at the snap of the fingers - it takes baby steps, little by little. But the good news is if you can even find one second of your day where you feel even a teensy bit better, taht means the possibility is there - if you can do it for a half of a second, where you just don't feel completely miserable, that means you can do it for 3 seconds, then 5, and eventually a minute, then an hour, and so on and so forth.

All you need for this to happen is to recognize that the possibility exists. By acknowledging that, this possibility actually starts to change your neurological structure (neuroplasticity) - meaning your brain physically starts to change.

The most important thing I can say to you, is that getting better requires effort. But it's possible. Just accept it's possible - that's all you need to get your foot in the door.

Are you bothered all day long by depressive thoughts, or an over active brain that won't let you rest? Try this:

Try going about your day, or doing things at home, and only looking out of the corners of your eyes. This is difficult at first, because your vision keeps going back and forth between seeing out of the corner of your eye, to looking straightforward normally. However, as I said above, you can in fact do this for a second or two before your vision reverts back to the front. If you put in the effort, you will be able to do it for a few more seonds, and eventually, for extended periods of time. You just have to put in the effort.

What this does is force your brain to be occupied 100% by this task - it leaves no room for intrusive, depressing, or anxious thoughts. It might sound silly or ridiculous, but I encourage you to try it when you feel at your worst and work at it a little bit. You will find that afterwards you feel so much more relaxed. The effort required at first will disappear, until you can do this automatically to take your mind off of things. So don't just think that because it's hard at first, or a pain in the ass, that it will always be like that. It will little by little, get easier and easier.
That makes a lot of sense actually!!! I'd say my pain is psychological then, I have adhd but my main issue is that I'm depressed. I tried your trick, it actually does help! Can't be doing this all the time though haha, but thank you for taking the time to help me.
 
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Jello Biafra

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That makes a lot of sense actually!!! I'd say my pain is psychological then, I have adhd but my main issue is that I'm depressed. I tried your trick, it actually does help! Can't be doing this all the time though haha, but thank you for taking the time to help me.

Ya, it's not something you can do all day long.

The point, however, is that you felt something - no matter how small, how insignificant, or how quickly it passed, this should encourage you that the possibility exists that there is a tiny light at the end of the tunnel.

That's all it takes to get better, or to at least improve things a little bit. Nobody is saying it's easy, but it can be done, you can little by little start improving. Just acknowledge the possibility.

I would suggest either every morning you wake up, or every night before bed, repeat one sentence to yourself, one time, and then forget about it. Tell yourself that the possibility exists that you can start to feel a tiny bit better.
 
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