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The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post
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But I have totally talked about sodium nitrite and people using it to kill themselves in conjunction with bacon and my mom was like "well that's stupid".
I put my robe on and I'm burning up because of the hot flashes. Then I take it off & a few minutes later I'm freezing so much I'm shivering because of the thyroid problems!!! It's driving me crazy!
I've never been more impatient about anything in my life as I am about getting this nitrogen tank right now. I've never felt in such a rush to do anything. Even when I first made up my mind to CTB, this was so much more abstract a thought. But the way things are going now, i am so prepared....
I have a few fleeting obligations and i'm not sure i'll get everything resolved in time. I wish there were a version of me that didn't have all these problems I have, to help fulfill remaining professional/social obligations, but then i guess that wouldn't be the real me...
I would only post on this site, but there's a song I want to post. I don't know. . . maybe I'll just post the song on here when I go. I had intended to make a thread just saying what this site and the people here have meant to me, but I think most of the people that I would've been talking about, other than all of you here, are almost all gone now.
Hmmm. . . I'll have to think about that a little bit.
I've never been more impatient about anything in my life as I am about getting this nitrogen tank right now. I've never felt in such a rush to do anything. Even when I first made up my mind to CTB, this was so much more abstract a thought. But the way things are going now, i am so prepared....
I have a few fleeting obligations and i'm not sure i'll get everything resolved in time. I wish there were a version of me that didn't have all these problems I have, to help fulfill remaining professional/social obligations, but then i guess that wouldn't be the real me...
I hear you. I've got all kinds of stuff that I'm going to have to leave undone because I just can't physically get it done because of all my illnesses and such. The irony is, if I had the ability to get the stuff done, I might not have to leave quite as quickly. But I feel like I am deteriorating so fast at this point that it's probably better that I leave sooner rather than later before I get to some point where I can't do anything for myself anymore. Or where I slip up and tell somebody what I'm doing when I don't mean to because I'm so brain foggy that I don't know what I'm talking about.
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I hear you. I've got all kinds of stuff that I'm going to have to leave undone because I just can't physically get it done because of all my illnesses and such. The irony is, if I had the ability to get the stuff done, I might not have to leave quite as quickly. But I feel like I am deteriorating so fast at this point that it's probably better that I leave sooner rather than later before I get to some point where I can't do anything for myself anymore. Or where I slip up and tell somebody what I'm doing when I don't mean to because I'm so brain foggy that I don't know what I'm talking about.
I've never been more impatient about anything in my life as I am about getting this nitrogen tank right now. I've never felt in such a rush to do anything. Even when I first made up my mind to CTB, this was so much more abstract a thought. But the way things are going now, i am so prepared....
I have a few fleeting obligations and i'm not sure i'll get everything resolved in time. I wish there were a version of me that didn't have all these problems I have, to help fulfill remaining professional/social obligations, but then i guess that wouldn't be the real me...
Granted, once you're dead... things like that won't even apply.
I've actually wondered... would knowing you're going to be dead from an attempt that you won't (most likely) survive be any different than being told to prepare not waking up from a surgery.... like would your last moments be completely focused into a few things that summarize the only things that really matter to you... like the last thing that really matters, or whatever.
like would your last moments be completely focused into a few things that summarize the only things that really matter to you... like the last thing that really matters, or whatever.
Granted, once you're dead... things like that won't even apply.
I've actually wondered... would knowing you're going to be dead from an attempt that you won't (most likely) survive be any different than being told to prepare not waking up from a surgery.... like would your last moments be completely focused into a few things that summarize the only things that really matter to you... like the last thing that really matters, or whatever.
Yes, I'm sure I'll be thinking of my husband. But I'm also going to be thinking of how I am about to be released from my mind & my body which have become my prison. I'm going to be thinking about how I'm about to be free. In fact, that's the last word of the song that I chose that I will post. The last words in the song are "she's free".
I know it focused my thoughts very quick when told I might wake up from surgery. MY entire life compressed into a few things. instantly. nothing else mattered. I decided then to never have regrets, no matter what, and until last year, I managed that. Now I have one. Well two, but one I can't control, and technically the one I can't fix now. And if there was an afterlife, I could take care of the other one.... probably get slapped while making up for it if at all possible, but still lol.
Yes, I'm sure I'll be thinking of my husband. But I'm also going to be thinking of how I am about to be released from my mind & my body which have become my prison. I'm going to be thinking about how I'm about to be free. In fact, that's the last word of the song that I chose that I will post. The last words in the song are "she's free".
Interesting... I did a quick search for those words because it sounded familiar, and it returned a single song.... doubt it's it though, but won't ask given it's something you want to be your final possibly.
Was talking to my mom and she called me a hypochondriac, said I like to have stuff wrong with me and that I have a title for everything because I told her I have seborrheic dermatitis (which is true, my hairdresser thinks). And that I like drama.
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Was talking to my mom and she called me a hypochondriac, said I like to have stuff wrong with me and that I have a title for everything because I told her I have seborrheic dermatitis (which is true, my hairdresser thinks). And that I like drama.
Everything has a name... literally... the plastic part at the end of shoelaces has a name. just because you know it doesn't mean you're a hypochondriac, it just means you know the name of it. Really it means you've been told what it is.
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