The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[cosmicpixiedust]

@Squiddy look what I found Anyway, back to work

 

[MysticPerception]

Time for me to sleep, goodnight everyone. Gonna bump Stan's thread then head to bed.

 

[Carina]

couldn't sleep... forgot to take pills that let me sleep... cleaned out drawers...

found things literally from 1995 (they're dated) other things from 1983... I found one of my first computer programs I ever wrote... when I was like 7. The program that basically caused me to get the jobs I've gotten in programming/IT. Found a lot of things I need to burn.

I threw out a lot of things that used to mean something to me, but... it's nothing... completely blank. almost like it belongs to someone else.

Birthday cards were sad. Especially one from 20 years ago from ex coworkers... and I don't know why.


But I found something cool... basically it says "this life is just a test, if it had been a real life instructions and directions would've been provided".

I probably should take the pills now... eyes never stopped burning.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

And I'm back there after a shitty night and a shitty morning

 

[Carina]

And I'm back there after a shitty night and a shitty morning

I'm sorry. Annoying people?



[I still haven't taken pills yet... been reminiscing apparentlh]

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I'm sorry. Annoying people?

No, I just woke up in a really crappy mood compared to last several days and I couldn't shake it off completely.

 

[Carina]

ok.... attempt 3 of actually taking pills so I sleep instead of doing things...

 

[Morphinekiss]

I hate not being able to work and having no money of my own. Boohoo first world problems, atleast I have a roof over my head.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

Haven't been in here for a while.
Howdy :)

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I hate not being able to work and having no money of my own. Boohoo first world problems, atleast I have a roof over my head.

Hey, it's like third world except you have to work on some shit job you wish you didn't exist

 

[Jean4]

I do not have insomnia and I am sleep writing

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I do not have insomnia and I am sleep writing

You're typing in your dreams now?

 

[Thereisnothing]

Have had no sleep and feeling worse at minutes tick by...........stupid me for still being here.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I do not have insomnia and I am sleep writing

Do they have fiber-optic internet in the dreamland yet?

 

[LegaliseIt!]

My rums allowed me 3 hours sleep its now 6 am and I've been wide awake since 2am....

That's so brutal

That's so brutal

Are you able to drink coffee?

 

[Soulless_Angel]

That's so brutal

Are you able to drink coffee?

Myself personally have not touched a cup of coffee or tea or anything milk related since April 2nd, the day of my first mental breakdown! it's weird, I used to be a 6 cups a day kinda girl!

 

[LegaliseIt!]

In 5 hours, I can go pick up my sleeping pill at the pharmacy...and this is how not to do "adulting". (It's 4am here)
Just in case anyone is wondering why I have trouble holding down a job!

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

I think I got manic today and then crashed and got depressed, but I don't know how to really even tell because I'm always depressed and a little manic to some extent? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

[BabyYoda]

Hey guys, sorry to bother you again with the same issue I have. A certain guy friend of mine is willing to show affection to me (and everyone else, even those who aren't dating him). He seems to be the ideal guy whether as a friend or romantic partner. But idk why I feel that this is a scam. Like it's too good to be true for someone like him to freely give to me. I'm nothing special, I'm not attractive. This guy just seems too nice. I can't tell if this is a result of me overthinking. He seems to be "interested" in me but I have a feeling that he acts that way to everyone else. I honestly do not know what to do when he shows this "interest" in me, because I don't want to get into this trap if it is a trap. I have no plans to CTB so that means whenever I reach beyond my critical point again I won't be able to handle it.

Also, I can't understand why I'm unable to love myself enough. I mean I can take care of myself and stuff but I am simply not fond of myself. I really don't care about seeing my strengths and being confident. I'm unable to say "I don't need anybody, I have myself and that is all". This is, however, separate for my desire to be alone. What I'm saying is that I still desire love from a human being other than myself. Is this a bad thing?

 

[BooGirl]

I hate algebraic long division.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

I hate algebraic long division.

I don't blame you, that sounds terrible.

 

[BooGirl]

I don't blame you, that sounds terrible.

Fuck this shit, how am I even gonna tutor

 

[Jean4]

Just quasi getting up. Actually the cats woke me up. 3 hours late for their breakfast. I just took my meds. Not ready to get the day started yet, but the cats ate.
Guppy Man @Azzy69 just told me he has new guppy babies! Pics when he wakes up!!

 

[Root]

Hello everyone. I hope you're having a good day! My mother visited me here in hospital and it was nice.

 

[Jean4]

Hello everyone. I hope you're having a good day! My mother visited me here in hospital and it was nice.

Good morning Root!! How are you feeling today?

 

[Root]

Good morning Root!! How are you feeling today?

Better than a few days ago because of my mom. Still anxious about the ward though. And you? What are going to do today?

 

[Jean4]

Better than a few days ago because of my mom. Still anxious about the ward though. And you? What are going to do today?

Normal to be anxious. I'm glad your mom visited.
I'm still in bed. Trying to wake up. Coffee first. :)

 

[Azzy69]

Anyone want me to grab them something to eat? I am about to head to the store.

 

[Root]

Normal to be anxious. I'm glad your mom visited.
I'm still in bed. Trying to wake up. Coffee first. :)

Okay. I hope your day will be okay! :)

 

[Jean4]

Anyone want me to grab them something to eat? I am about to head to the store.

I'm still in bed trying to wake up. Coffee!