The gentlest goodbye is the silent one. Goodbye(My CTB)

[Seele]

I think that saying goodbye without seeming like you're saying goodbye is a subtle way of not causing an impact on the people you love. The suffering is already there; I drank a lot of alcohol, but I told myself, "That's enough!" There's no reason to prolong my existence; I already have what I need in my hands. I calculated everything like the chemist I once was. One sip and all the suffering will end. It's better to die at 23 than to spend 80 years agonizing slowly. My friend and my love are gone, what do I have left when my family cares so little? To live alone, suffering intensely with borderline, pushing everything away and destroying everything? I'm tired of it. I don't care if I have an IQ of 141; it's just a number! What's the point of having 4 disorders that take turns tormenting me?
Life is a fatal gift... Since I am anonymous... I think, just take it already and die!

"I leave silently through the back door of the theater of life, and ... close the door to hell, the one who is the last to leave."- Seele AKA Christina.

 

[E.T]

i've seen you in chat a few times. i truly hope you find the peace you want and deserve. best wishes.

 

[astr4]

rest well. i hope you are finally at peace.

 

[Seele]

It tastes like salt, but it's strange. agh

 

[Namelesa]

Hope you get peace that you want and deserve. Life with BPD is hell.

 

[Tombs_in_your_eyes]

I'm so sorry your life has been so painful. I hope that whether you stay or leave, that you find the peace you're seeking.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

wishing you peace. we're here with you.

 

[Mirrory Me]

What does: "Shot on awesome A70" mean? Is that how the camera works?

 

[Seele]

What does: "Shot on awesome A70" mean? Is that how the camera works?

I don't know, I bought whatever cell phone I saw first

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[Seele]

I don't feel anything, just a bitter taste in my mouth. I miss you QM and Sun
I feel a bad taste and difficulty breathing, my body feels tingly
I feel very sick

 

[kitkat9234]

I wish you peace.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

that chemical taste is normal. I hope it is swift.

wishing you a peaceful transition.

 

[SA1994EC]

I wish your soul and spirit would be healed through the transition. Sail smoothly to the universe you truly belong to.

 

[ForestGhost]

Rest well. Hope you're at peace.

 

[seasons4changing]

I pray for grace and peace for you

 

[cloudyskye]

May you find rest and joy.

 

[MidnightDream]

Rest in peace

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

All the best to you, Seele AKA Christina. Thanks for sharing your story. Peace

 

[TragedyBornCrimson]

I hope you find peace

 

[lilyofthevalley404]

I hope you find peace best wishes

 

[caliban]

I'm sorry you had to make this decision.

I wish I could've got to know you!

Godspeed

 

[complex]

This is my fault. I fell asleep on u. I will now sleep forever with u. Sorry i am so toxic but no more . I will not cause further toxicity.

 

[savory]

Rest easy

 

[Unknown21]

Have a peaceful journey. Goodbye.

 

[cowboypants]

Didn't know you were doing it seele, rest easy

 

[avalokitesvara]

peace to you

 

[Toothless Bunny]

I think that saying goodbye without seeming like you're saying goodbye is a subtle way of not causing an impact on the people you love. The suffering is already there; I drank a lot of alcohol, but I told myself, "That's enough!" There's no reason to prolong my existence; I already have what I need in my hands. I calculated everything like the chemist I once was. One sip and all the suffering will end. It's better to die at 23 than to spend 80 years agonizing slowly. My friend and my love are gone, what do I have left when my family cares so little? To live alone, suffering intensely with borderline, pushing everything away and destroying everything? I'm tired of it. I don't care if I have an IQ of 141; it's just a number! What's the point of having 4 disorders that take turns tormenting me?
Life is a fatal gift... Since I am anonymous... I think, just take it already and die!

"I leave silently through the back door of the theater of life, and ... close the door to hell, the one who is the last to leave."- Seele AKA Christina.
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Hope you can find peace finally

 

[OldManOfTheLake]

Farewell, friend

 

[CatLvr]

May you find the peace we all seek. Godspeed.