Venting The first thing I feel upon becoming conscious is the neurochemical pain of depression

[Crematoryy]

Even before producing any thought, it's the pure sensation of chemical pain in my brain. My girlfriend left me for the second time yesterday, as I explained in this post:Post

I have depression chemicals in my bloodstream. Every day from now on will be identical, and before I even think, my body will say, "Why did I wake up? How I wish I weren't alive."

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

Yes, I feel this too. Waking up is painful and my first thought is: why did I wake up?