Venting The fear of death has made me want to die

[Geodude77]

I know it sounds like a paradox but hear me out.

I am extremely cardiophobic and for the last couple of months I've felt like I was going to die. Whenever I tell my parents this they tell me it's because I'm weak and ask why I can't be more like my peers. My grades are going to shit because I'm way to focused on my sensations. I feel like a failure.

I'm afraid of death but life feels like shit

 

[LMLN]

That does not sound unusual at all. It makes sense to me. You have no control over the sensations in your heart and fear of dying that way, but by ctb you feel you have control. It must be very difficult, I'm so sorry.

 

[Quinlor]

Infinite loop
I want to die but I have afraid of death. I have afraid of death so I will die for my own hands, but I have afraid of death, so how I do that, I want to die...

 

[bpdandme]

I know it sounds like a paradox but hear me out.

I am extremely cardiophobic and for the last couple of months I've felt like I was going to die. Whenever I tell my parents this they tell me it's because I'm weak and ask why I can't be more like my peers. My grades are going to shit because I'm way to focused on my sensations. I feel like a failure.

I'm afraid of death but life feels like shit

I understand how you feel, I also have a fear of death and have daily existential meltdowns but I also wish I was dead. Please feel free to message if you want to talk about it!

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I'm the same.
I want to die by my own terms.

 

[PainfulGut]

It's understandable. Especially if you fear out of control situations, death is pretty much the most out of control thing that can happen. That's why imagining suicide is a comfort to me, because I get to choose it.

 

[Mr2005]

I get this. Lifes so shit because of all the death.