
eternalmelancholy
waiting for the bus
- Mar 24, 2021
- 1,169
I was born as a result of a sad attempt to fix a failing marriage. Which is a terrible idea because it just anchors people who hate each other together for life.
Both my parents saw their own worst qualities in me and it reminded them how much they hated themselves. As result I was beaten and humiliated on a frequent basis. I didn't even know that this wasn't normal until high school because I was home schooled and kept isolated until then.
The fact that I didn't have to be born and experience any of this misery makes me resent my parents, the universe, etc that much more. I am here because of some random cosmic fluke and have to suffer everyday because of it.
Both my parents saw their own worst qualities in me and it reminded them how much they hated themselves. As result I was beaten and humiliated on a frequent basis. I didn't even know that this wasn't normal until high school because I was home schooled and kept isolated until then.
The fact that I didn't have to be born and experience any of this misery makes me resent my parents, the universe, etc that much more. I am here because of some random cosmic fluke and have to suffer everyday because of it.