The entire internet is out to get me… even on here.

[leavingsoonx]

Everything I do gets reflected on the internet. They love to make fun of me and you do too. I want to kill myself, the other wants to stay alive out of spite, I will never be your slave. I'm a human being. It's a 50/50 chance for the SN. 50/50 chance I'm going to be stubborn and get off the internet again and soak my brain in alcohol, drugs, and TV. If nothing matters why not become an addict? They make fun of me for trying to be good so I don't have to do that anymore.

 

[Goosechan]

I'm sorry to hear people have been making fun of you in ways that hurt. I can't give you any useful advice, but I want you to know that your worries have been heard and you matter. Always. No matter what you make next. You matter.

 

[leavingsoonx]

I'm sorry to hear people have been making fun of you in ways that hurt. I can't give you any useful advice, but I want you to know that your worries have been heard and you matter. Always. No matter what you make next. You matter.

They bully me over my farts. They bully me with child molestation and making fun of Jesus. They are evil. You're a part of them but thanks. There's no real humans left, just actors and actresses getting paid money to hurt and humiliate people.

 

[deadbehindtheeyes12]

They bully me over my farts. They bully me with child molestation and making fun of Jesus. They are evil. You're a part of them but thanks. There's no real humans left, just actors and actresses getting paid money to hurt and humiliate people.

I think your experiencing mania mate. Iv been there

 

[leavingsoonx]

I think your experiencing mania mate. Iv been there

The worst part is I know I'm not crazy. Everything I say will be deemed as crazy but it's because of what they did to me. They want me to feel crazy when in fact they are the ones who've done everything to me. Thanks for trying

 

[deadbehindtheeyes12]

The worst part is I know I'm not crazy. Everything I say will be deemed as crazy but it's because of what they did to me. They want me to feel crazy when in fact they are the ones who've done everything to me. Thanks for trying

What have they done to you and who is they?

 

[leavingsoonx]

What have they done to you and who is they?

They trapped me into a house for the homeless and started acting like I was a very special person. The police told me "we'll pretend you're a normal person" and I got stalked at my place, shit left on the doorsteps and notes for me. Then the staff that told me I was being stalked magically disappeared. Then they all said it never happened. Them is everyone. They are aliens who are heartless and also have taunted me when I wanted to kill myself, literally laugh. They do stuff that no one will ever believe or justify. If I talk about it, all they have to say is "you're crazy" or "that didn't happen" when it did. They have all the power because who is gonna believe all these things that happened? Who's really going to say, yes it's true?

 

[deadbehindtheeyes12]

They trapped me into a house for the homeless and started acting like I was a very special person. The police told me "we'll pretend you're a normal person" and I got stalked at my place, shit left on the doorsteps and notes for me. Then the staff that told me I was being stalked magically disappeared. Then they all said it never happened. Them is everyone. They are aliens who are heartless and also have taunted me when I wanted to kill myself, literally laugh. They do stuff that no one will ever believe or justify. If I talk about it, all they have to say is "you're crazy" or "that didn't happen" when it did. They have all the power because who is gonna believe all these things that happened? Who's really going to say, yes it's true?

Have you spoken to a doctor or anything? Coz this sounds just like what I went through and once I got on medication it went away

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I can't speak for anyone else here, although I'm sure many would agree with me, I am certainly not out to get you in any capacity.

I truly am sorry if you've experienced anything untoward here, there will always be bad eggs but the majority of us are understanding and want to listen, no matter how you're feeling. I know some people above have suggested seeing a doctor, and if you haven't, I hope you at least give it a go. I am in no way trying to invalidate your experience or say it's not real, because that's not fair to say to anyone. No one here is inside your head except you, and whatever you're experiencing is valid. Here if you want to talk<3

 

[GoSan1]

This is just cruel, while I wouldn't call myself a Christian with all my sins and mistakes, I still pray Jesus gets you out of this.

I will take the SN before becoming something I don't wanna be. As long as you choose that, which makes you your true self, it is right.
I hurt people, I was toxic in games, I said unfathomably bad things, and I hate it. I am just like the people you talk about...

I still hope that in all that cruelty, you still have some dreams and hopes.

 

[cotton]

Aliens left things on the doorstep for you?

 

[Winterreise]

It might be the algoritms that suggest stuff that reflect your writing . That can be fucked up in itself. Behavior based advertising is a mind fucker. And if mixed with politics, especially the mean politicisns, you get som stasi level psychological torture . Kill sosial meida!!! It need to fucking die screaming in terror.

 

[leavingsoonx]

Thanks to all the supportive messages. I'm 50/50 with staying or going but I read it all and tried to intake it