Discussion The End.

[nunex]

GOD Why is it so fucking hard

 

[eryu]

I'm sorry if you don't find a way to fix your health.
I think people in such a situation at the very least need to be listened to by people around them and doctors but they often aren't.
With so much pain already and not even at least the recognition that it is real, it tips people over the edge.

Also, it is okay to say you're doing it and not end up going through with it. Many people have been there and it is deeply frustrating.
Even the most hopeless will still struggle against survival instinct and the wave of complicated emotions.
Besides the normal fear and panic, there is so much lingering hope and desperation that it could all still be different, reluctance to hurt family/friends, etc.
It's an emotional storm and it's excruciating.

 

[Death is beautiful]

OP are you still with us? Have you changed your mind?

 

[Elri]

How're you doing?

 

[nunex]

OP are you still with us? Have you changed your mind?

Sadly yes... I drived to the place, took all the drugs in the protocol, only to have the SN left to drink.

The time passed, and I had the bottle in my mouth, ready to drink it. But for some reason, I guess I was scared, my Brain was tricking me by flashing what would be the reactions of my family, and how devastated they would be.

Wish someone would just shoot me in the head, but I guess I just need to fucking have the balls to drink

 

[fox_wannabe]

Sadly yes... I drived to the place, took all the drugs in the protocol, only to have the SN left to drink.

The time passed, and I had the bottle in my mouth, ready to drink it. But for some reason, I guess I was scared, my Brain was tricking me by flashing what would be the reactions of my family, and how devastated they would be.

Wish someone would just shoot me in the head, but I guess I just need to fucking have the balls to drink

Oh yeah, I went through same thing. It is nothing to be ashamed of. We can talk in dms if you want