• UK users: Due to a formal investigation into this site by Ofcom under the UK Online Safety Act 2023, we strongly recommend using a trusted, no-logs VPN. This will help protect your privacy, bypass censorship, and maintain secure access to the site. Read the full VPN guide here.

  • Hey Guest,

    Today, OFCOM launched an official investigation into Sanctioned Suicide under the UK’s Online Safety Act. This has already made headlines across the UK.

    This is a clear and unprecedented overreach by a foreign regulator against a U.S.-based platform. We reject this interference and will be defending the site’s existence and mission.

    In addition to our public response, we are currently seeking legal representation to ensure the best possible defense in this matter. If you are a lawyer or know of one who may be able to assist, please contact us at [email protected].

    Read our statement here:

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC): 34HyDHTvEhXfPfb716EeEkEHXzqhwtow1L
    Ethereum (ETH): 0xd799aF8E2e5cEd14cdb344e6D6A9f18011B79BE9
    Monero (XMR): 49tuJbzxwVPUhhDjzz6H222Kh8baKe6rDEsXgE617DVSDD8UKNaXvKNU8dEVRTAFH9Av8gKkn4jDzVGF25snJgNfUfKKNC8
I

Intelligent_Lobster

I knew taking this picture would come in handy
Mar 30, 2019
92
I'm probably going to kill myself. Not because I want to- because I have to.



I don't believe that it is my time just yet, and I have some personal goals I wish I could have fulfilled. However, my school debts are too great. What's more, is my best friend fucked me over, and stopped paying rent. She stopped paying in April. She's fled, and left me with 100% of the debt, even though none of it is mine. I've been paying my part.

Either way, if I never show up here again, just know this wasn't my design.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Aww..
Reactions: Carina, OreoWellington, LegaliseIt! and 17 others
Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
@Intelligent_Lobster, that's no good - I don't want you to go before you're ready, not because of some bills! Can we talk about other options? Including: What happens if you don't pay these bills?
 
  • Like
Reactions: LegaliseIt!, puppy9, fastFWD and 7 others
J

JoeFailure

Mage
Apr 29, 2019
592
I'm probably going to kill myself. Not because I want to- because I have to.



I don't believe that it is my time just yet, and I have some personal goals I wish I could have fulfilled. However, my school debts are too great. What's more, is my best friend fucked me over, and stopped paying rent. She stopped paying in April. She's fled, and left me with 100% of the debt, even though none of it is mine. I've been paying my part.

Either way, if I never show up here again, just know this wasn't my design.

Don't do it because of debt. You're young, plenty of young people have debt. Go after those goals. You can always start paying the debt back later if you have to.
 
  • Like
Reactions: LegaliseIt!, done_so_done and Ssrejisser
I

Intelligent_Lobster

I knew taking this picture would come in handy
Mar 30, 2019
92
When
@Intelligent_Lobster, that's no good - I don't want you to go before you're ready, not because of some bills! Can we talk about other options? Including: What happens if you don't pay these bills?
@Intelligent_Lobster, that's no good - I don't want you to go before you're ready, not because of some bills! Can we talk about other options? Including: What happens if you don't pay these bills?

I'm going to court on Monday, and I'm praying the judge understands the situation I'm in currently.

I'm not sure what else I can do, if it all falls back on me. I have an internet bill that just keeps piling, because they owe me 200$ on that, because I was an idiot and I told them they could get me back once they became employed. I also have thousands in school debt I'm currently repaying, and now it looks like I'll have to pay thousands of dollars in rent, because there were only two people on the lease, but three people paying. So at the very least, I'll have to pay half what they owe, + what I'm already paying monthly. I can't handle the stress of this, and it will be 5+ years before I can dig my way out of this mess. I can't stand 5 years of crippling financial anxiety. Not to mention that I'm scheduled to get a costly surgery early next year (top surgery), and it seems like it's going to be impossible now.

Oh, and to too it all off? I hate my college program, and all I can find for work at the moment is a part time service job at a retail store. I don't see any way out of this, besides adjusting my suicide plans. I absolutely refuse to die without breath removal though, so I'd pity the person to find my body.
Don't do it because of debt. You're young, plenty of young people have debt. Go after those goals. You can always start paying the debt back later if you have to.

I really don't think I can get out of this. Not without facing severe anxiety, and at that point I might as well be dead.

They're taking me to court this week, and the government is going to crack down on me soon after. I don't see how being young will help me. I have no parents to fall back on, I don't even have a house to live in if I get evicted.
 
Last edited:
  • Aww..
  • Hugs
Reactions: LegaliseIt! and puppy9
fastFWD

fastFWD

running out of time...
Feb 12, 2019
151
sorry to hear you in are this situation; i was recently taken to court by a debt collector for a huge credit card debt and i have huge student loans as well so i feel you.

perhaps you can still turn things around? have you signed up for an income based repayment plan on your student loans?
is there no hope of finding another person looking for a place to stay? like craigslist or a roommate site?
 
  • Like
Reactions: Soul
Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
I'm sorry, @Intelligent_Lobster! That's a lot of stress. The school loans aren't urgent yet, though, right? It's the mess with the back rent that will need to be dealt with fast? Have you considered a "go fund me" type of page to help with that? Maybe you could even offer a stay in your flat to people who donate a lot.

I'm sorry if that's a stupid idea - I just woke up but I want to help.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Intelligent_Lobster, Thorn and fastFWD
I

Intelligent_Lobster

I knew taking this picture would come in handy
Mar 30, 2019
92
I'm sorry, @Intelligent_Lobster! That's a lot of stress. The school loans aren't urgent yet, though, right? It's the mess with the back rent that will need to be dealt with fast? Have you considered a "go fund me" type of page to help with that? Maybe you could even offer a stay in your flat to people who donate a lot.

I'm sorry if that's a stupid idea - I just woke up but I want to help.
Right, the student loans aren't urgent yet.

I thought about making a go fund me, but I don't really have friends, and I'm not on social media.

The hearing is in about 6 hours. I ended up partying last night, and I met someone. I might stick around long enough to see this relationship through- she really swept me off my feet.
 
  • Like
Reactions: realjunes
Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
Right, the student loans aren't urgent yet.

I thought about making a go fund me, but I don't really have friends, and I'm not on social media.

The hearing is in about 6 hours. I ended up partying last night, and I met someone. I might stick around long enough to see this relationship through- she really swept me off my feet.

Let us know how the hearing goes, okay? And hurrah about being swept off your feet. x
 
I

Intelligent_Lobster

I knew taking this picture would come in handy
Mar 30, 2019
92
Let us know how the hearing goes, okay? And hurrah about being swept off your feet. x

It went incredibly awful. They wouldn't explain anything to me, and when I started crying out of frustration, they handed me a McDonald's napkin and just said "budget cuts". I owe almost $5,000, and they treated me like I was 12, because I'm pretty young(just graduated college).

They wouldn't take any of my evidence against my shithole roommates, and I have to pay it by the 18th of this month.

It's funny, because now I'm just playing a waiting game. They'll take me to court again, once I don't pay (I'm working a part time job). If they're rude again, they'll take 50% of my pay, until the dawn of time because I make $14 an hour.
 
P

Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
913
Don't do it because of debt. You're young, plenty of young people have debt. Go after those goals. You can always start paying the debt back later if you have to.
What if you are not young. What if you have only, say,,ten years or so...what if you're a boomer without anyone? What if...what if?
 
LegaliseIt!

LegaliseIt!

Elementalist
Nov 29, 2019
808
Gawd! Capitalism is so ugly!

Everyone wonders why young people have lost all hope?

Perhaps because they take out loans to go to uni, only to end up working 3 minimum wage jobs with no benefits and no hope of owning a home, marrying or having a family!
Only a squalid daily slog enduring soul sucking verbal abuse from those with hereditary wealth. I wish that I was exaggerating. :aw:
 
  • Like
Reactions: WhyIsLife56, Sensei and Worthless_nobody
J

JoeFailure

Mage
Apr 29, 2019
592
What if you are not young. What if you have only, say,,ten years or so...what if you're a boomer without anyone? What if...what if?

Sorry to hear. What's your situation? I definitely don't have all the answers but maybe I could help with some more details.
 
Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Aug 21, 2019
1,938
Gawd! Capitalism is so ugly!

Everyone wonders why young people have lost all hope?

Perhaps because they take out loans to go to uni, only to end up working 3 minimum wage jobs with no benefits and no hope of owning a home, marrying or having a family!
Only a squalid daily slog enduring soul sucking verbal abuse from those with hereditary wealth. I wish that I was exaggerating. :aw:

Maybe if they didn't major in useless garbage, they could get a real job instead of trying to live off of 3 mcjobs.
 

Similar threads

SecretDissociation
Replies
10
Views
256
Suicide Discussion
Pale_Rider
Pale_Rider
lunar02102009
Replies
17
Views
138
Suicide Discussion
Hotsackage
H
SecretDissociation
Replies
4
Views
171
Suicide Discussion
SecretDissociation
SecretDissociation
mob
Replies
7
Views
307
Suicide Discussion
dulldark
D
Neutron-Witch
Replies
0
Views
127
Suicide Discussion
Neutron-Witch
Neutron-Witch