IfHeDiesHeDies

IfHeDiesHeDies

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Sep 12, 2018
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We all know how survival instinct is a bitch which makes us unwittingly accept a declining quality of life, social - economic status etc. we are forever procrastinating when to take actions but I am so scared that it would get to a point which makes ctbing physically impossible. Anyone else feels the same way?
 
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I’vehadenough

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Sep 15, 2018
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My quality declined rapidly overnight. As, I was facially disfigured. Think you guys got problems? Imagine your whole life coming to an end, only you have to live through your death as if you're in purgatory. I haven't killed myself yet bc the pain of it scares me. There has to be an easier way to do it
 
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We all know how survival instinct is a bitch which makes us unwittingly accept a declining quality of life, social - economic status etc. we are forever procrastinating when to take actions but I am so scared that it would get to a point which makes ctbing physically impossible. Anyone else feels the same way?

The rebound from death by my survival instinct didn't send me far enough into wanting to live again.
 
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IfHeDiesHeDies

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Sep 12, 2018
383
The rebound from death by my survival instinct didn't send me far enough into wanting to live again.

I guess that's when you know you really want to die and are not acting on impulse.
 
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Swisher

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Sep 9, 2018
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We all know how survival instinct is a bitch which makes us unwittingly accept a declining quality of life, social - economic status etc. we are forever procrastinating when to take actions but I am so scared that it would get to a point which makes ctbing physically impossible. Anyone else feels the same way?

We have to Help each other. 12.3%? I tried...terrified

https://m.scoop.co.nz/stories/HL0003/S00026/suicide-is-painless-the-craccum-articles.htm
Mathematical
https://www.theguardian.com/science...is-altruism-selfish-play-calculating-kindness
 
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InkBlot

What Do You See?
Sep 17, 2018
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I swore off the idea of gunshot, just because I've seen too many survivors, or people that took two or three shots to end their life. I don't want to live through something like that.

I guess if youre really afraid, make a machine to do it with minimal effort. Theres a short indie film where a man's wife dies, so he uses a machine and digs his own grave, then arranges it to dump all the dirt on him in the hole.
 
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IfHeDiesHeDies

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Sep 12, 2018
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My quality declined rapidly overnight. As, I was facially disfigured. Think you guys got problems? Imagine your whole life coming to an end, only you have to live through your death as if you're in purgatory. I haven't killed myself yet bc the pain of it scares me. There has to be an easier way to do it

I know what you mean. I lost all my hair during the chemos and got people staring at me and making rude remarks all the time. It felt so uncomfortable and made wish I didn't have to leave the house again. But I had to work in order to pay for my treatments. Now I chose to discontinue any further treatment and hope I can gather the strength to finally end it.
 
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IfHeDiesHeDies

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Sep 12, 2018
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I swore off the idea of gunshot, just because I've seen too many survivors, or people that took two or three shots to end their life. I don't want to live through something like that.

I guess if youre really afraid, make a machine to do it with minimal effort. Theres a short indie film where a man's wife dies, so he uses a machine and digs his own grave, then arranges it to dump all the dirt on him in the hole.

What kind of machine do you have in mind? My method is N.
 
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Swisher

Black as coal
Sep 9, 2018
388
I swore off the idea of gunshot, just because I've seen too many survivors, or people that took two or three shots to end their life. I don't want to live through something like that.

I guess if youre really afraid, make a machine to do it with minimal effort. Theres a short indie film where a man's wife dies, so he uses a machine and digs his own grave, then arranges it to dump all the dirt on him in the hole.
Really?! A machine is so simple. I was going to do this slowly waking myself with alarms trying to ease into sleep...I did out and kept waking myself up by taking deep noisy, unfeminine sounding breaths. Partly BP medicine,
I'm probably having another strike my brain is bleeding I don't care, I'll never die...ridiculous. On the time that I can barely wake...I'd take all the rest of the pills at once....fall back asleep...and off we go? I got sick from something else first...ha
 
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Kev

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Aug 18, 2018
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I swore off the idea of gunshot, just because I've seen too many survivors, or people that took two or three shots to end their life. I don't want to live through something like that.

I guess if youre really afraid, make a machine to do it with minimal effort. Theres a short indie film where a man's wife dies, so he uses a machine and digs his own grave, then arranges it to dump all the dirt on him in the hole.

People survive gunshot wounds because the bullet does not hit the right spot. With a little bit of research and planning, death by gunshot to the head is practically guaranteed and instant. The key is simply to hit the brainstem, which is done by aiming directly between the eyes back to the base of the head, or by aiming laterally directly on or slightly above one ear, to the other ear. Obviously your aim will not be perfect, but if you use a hollow point bullet, which has a much greater area of internal damage, the brainstem is big enough that the margin of error is very wide. The brainstem controls our most basic survival functions as well as connects the rest of the nervous system to the brain, so if it is damaged, there is absolutely no chance of survival. It'll be like turning off a light switch.

This is how I plan to go, so I've done a lot of research and planning into guaranteeing my success.
 
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Swisher

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Sep 9, 2018
388
What kind of machine do you have in mind? My method is N.
But how? Is like to employ drugs and car...maybe accidentally grill...wait, my house is empty. Right I the kitchen..no one will look for me for a long time now...very busy
 
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IfHeDiesHeDies

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Sep 12, 2018
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But how? Is like to employ drugs and car...maybe accidentally grill...wait, my house is empty. Right I the kitchen..no one will look for me for a long time now...very busy

Huh?
 
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Swisher

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Sep 9, 2018
388
People survive gunshot wounds because the bullet does not hit the right spot. With a little bit of research and planning, death by gunshot to the head is practically guaranteed and instant. The key is simply to hit the brainstem, which is done by aiming directly between the eyes back to the base of the head, or by aiming laterally directly on or slightly above one ear, to the other ear. Obviously your aim will not be perfect, but if you use a hollow point bullet, which has a much greater area of internal damage, the brainstem is big enough that the margin of error is very wide. The brainstem controls our most basic survival functions as well as connects the rest of the nervous system to the brain, so if it is damaged, there is absolutely no chance of survival. It'll be like turning off a light switch.

This is how I plan to go, so I've done a lot of research and planning into guaranteeing my success.
And still people reflexively screw up. Tape your hand to your face..
No joke...I think that's brilliant of me!
I've got to partner. I totally lost my nerve...it wasnt even Really a failed attempt...just got sick suddenly

https://m.scoop.co.nz/stories/HL0003/S00026/suicide-is-painless-the-craccum-articles.htm
 
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Swisher

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Sep 9, 2018
388
I just had a manic thought. I also lost my auto-correct. I didn't want anyone to know I did this on purpose especially if I fail I am screwed. But the house that I'm going to is actually a flip. So it has a lot of issues. Just tiled the kitchen floor even if it got dirty I could clean it up. Nothing in there to catch fire. I could even say the heat didn't work, wasn't on. I could use two methods and let that grill go forever if I must. Houses isn't that big, but hot air rises I'll have to think about this but I think it could work... I stopped mid thought because I have a separate garage and figured I'd go in there but my neighbors are nebby, so I'm thinking somehow I could get it smoking on the front porch and then pull it into the kitchen (forget the whole car thing) it's just there are couple of rooms that would need to fill up, so I decided take the pills start the grill. Just thought take the pills go to sleep in the kitchen
 
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InkBlot

What Do You See?
Sep 17, 2018
162
People survive gunshot wounds because the bullet does not hit the right spot. With a little bit of research and planning, death by gunshot to the head is practically guaranteed and instant. The key is simply to hit the brainstem, which is done by aiming directly between the eyes back to the base of the head, or by aiming laterally directly on or slightly above one ear, to the other ear. Obviously your aim will not be perfect, but if you use a hollow point bullet, which has a much greater area of internal damage, the brainstem is big enough that the margin of error is very wide. The brainstem controls our most basic survival functions as well as connects the rest of the nervous system to the brain, so if it is damaged, there is absolutely no chance of survival. It'll be like turning off a light switch.

This is how I plan to go, so I've done a lot of research and planning into guaranteeing my success.

Ive seen survivors of 12 gauge shotguns, missing their face. No thanks. Its too easy to be distracted for a split second. I was intending to use my handgun for a long time, but comfortably place a glock23 in your mouth, and work up the nerve. Even drunk I couldnt do it.
 
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InkBlot

What Do You See?
Sep 17, 2018
162
What kind of machine do you have in mind? My method is N.

Dr K used a cocktail similar to N rigged to an IV that was then placed in the patient's arms and then they pressed their own plunger.
 
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Swisher

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Sep 9, 2018
388
Ive seen survivors of 12 gauge shotguns, missing their face. No thanks. Its too easy to be distracted for a split second. I was intending to use my handgun for a long time, but comfortably place a glock23 in your mouth, and work up the nerve. Even drunk I couldnt do it.
Correct. Impossible. Someone said take a contract out on your life...if you have the money. Want to know how many sleazy scumbags I found ( and it was hard. I don't live in a place any thing like that all my neighbors are doctors...ha. Lucky me). But I found the most despicable people I ever thought I'd meet, and not one of them would even consider it ...because they weren't despicable they were human.
 
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Swisher

Black as coal
Sep 9, 2018
388
I know what you mean. I lost all my hair during the chemos and got people staring at me and making rude remarks all the time. It felt so uncomfortable and made wish I didn't have to leave the house again. But I had to work in order to pay for my treatments. Now I chose to discontinue any further treatment and hope I can gather the strength to finally end it.
You've made me feel selfish. Who would do that to you? Nobody worth a shit!
 
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InkBlot

What Do You See?
Sep 17, 2018
162
You've made me feel selfish. Who would do that to you? Nobody worth a shit!

I know someone with alopecia, and people call him chemoboy, and cancerboy all the time. Hes 22.
 
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Swisher

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Sep 9, 2018
388
Dr K used a cocktail similar to N rigged to an IV that was then placed in the patient's arms and then they pressed their own plunger.
Right? They showed a but do this (with Dr. K) on 60 Minutes. I didn't like it. I felt the guy should snore and sleep get into some good REM, but look at it. Head just bobs down. seconds like 3. I want to take some sleepy stuff...course Dr
K couldn't assist...but...

So this thing can be made. And someone is probably already using it. Troll around with TOR...find someone. Careful he might kill you.......???
 
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throwaway123

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Aug 5, 2018
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We all know how survival instinct is a bitch which makes us unwittingly accept a declining quality of life, social - economic status etc. we are forever procrastinating when to take actions but I am so scared that it would get to a point which makes ctbing physically impossible. Anyone else feels the same way?

Yes I believe everyone here feels this way.
 
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couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
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accepting things is a big point in the agenda of psychologist too


i think the human brain gets used to most things just chronic pain and total social isolation is a problem i read once
 
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Jun 18, 2018
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My quality declined rapidly overnight. As, I was facially disfigured. Think you guys got problems? Imagine your whole life coming to an end, only you have to live through your death as if you're in purgatory. I haven't killed myself yet bc the pain of it scares me. There has to be an easier way to do it
Like Tom Cruise's facial disfigurement in Vanilla Sky? That was hard to watch
 
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hunter_lewis

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Sep 17, 2018
335
My quality declined rapidly overnight. As, I was facially disfigured. Think you guys got problems? Imagine your whole life coming to an end, only you have to live through your death as if you're in purgatory. I haven't killed myself yet bc the pain of it scares me. There has to be an easier way to do it

I'm in a similar situation-do you mind saying what is wrong with you healthwise?
 
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I’vehadenough

Elementalist
Sep 15, 2018
847
I know what you mean. I lost all my hair during the chemos and got people staring at me and making rude remarks all the time. It felt so uncomfortable and made wish I didn't have to leave the house again. But I had to work in order to pay for my treatments. Now I chose to discontinue any further treatment and hope I can gather the strength to finally end it.
Yeah, that's bad too. My whole face is fucked up though. My anxiety is through the roof. I wish someone would kill me
 
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IfHeDiesHeDies

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Sep 12, 2018
383
Yeah, that's bad too. My whole face is fucked up though. My anxiety is through the roof. I wish someone would kill me

I understand. I am sorry to hear about your suffering. Can nothing be done to your face?
 
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I’vehadenough

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Sep 15, 2018
847
I understand. I am sorry to hear about your suffering. Can nothing be done to your face?
I don't think so. I'm not really sure what happened to it. No doctor knows either. It could be severe collagen loss maybe, I don't know. But I have the features of a 90 year old woman on a young face and it looks gruesome
 
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IfHeDiesHeDies

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Sep 12, 2018
383
I don't think so. I'm not really sure what happened to it. No doctor knows either. It could be severe collagen loss maybe, I don't know. But I have the features of a 90 year old woman on a young face and it looks gruesome

Fcxk that sounds brutal. i am really sorry to hear that.
 
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