Venting The best time to CTB?

[Saponification]

So I have actually chosen a method and I do feel like dying right now, but I'm having this weird, ridiculous thought where I think it's not a good time to do it yet. Like I want my death to be... not anticlimactic. Yeah, sounds stupid, I know. I guess the reason is my ego dislikes the thought of me dying on a random, unremarkable day even though I recognize I'm not special and I'm just an insignificant creature with a negligible impact on the world.

Anyhow, like I said, I do wish to die as soon as possible, so I guess I'm just gonna ignore this thought and carry on with my CTB.

I'm wondering if anyone ever experienced something similar to this.

 

[AbsentMindedHuman]

I think most people would chalk that up to Survival instinct. I felt the same way during one of my attempts. I did everything right, planned it out got to my spot, was ready, but something inside just reminded me of how insignificant i was in that moment. I think we as humans just want to leave something behind. or have an impact in some way.... even if that impact is our death.

 

[Just_Another_Person]

It is not stupid, it is a serious decision/moment and if you think your time didn't come there is nothing wrong in not doing it. Remember, at the end of the day the decision is yours.