The best method is the most painful ones

[gooblet]

Here I sit,
shaking in pain,
when the pain stops,
I will be thankful again.
When the agony starts,
and it reaches my brain,
I'll beg and i'll beg
for no more pain.
I'll be grateful for death,
and have no reason to fear it,
oh but i do fear,
for i am so terribly near it.

i want to ctb in a painful way so that i have no fear of death and just want the pain to stop so I will be even more willing to die. I deserve to suffer so much and I hope I go to hell and burn for eternity. (sorry for the shit poem)

 

[knowledgeseeking]

should you choose to CBT, I hope you end up being kinder to yourself.