My father was a schizophrenic. In his suicide note he said the voices in his head were telling him to kill me and my brother. He then drove his car off a cliff. They say suicide is a cowardly act. What was so cowardly about saving the lives of two small boys?
Schizophrenia can be hereditary. So he didn't really save us fully because in 1993, whilst deployed, I snapped. After making many 'attempts' I was kicked out of the army.
Fast forward 33 years and my arms are horrifically scared from SH. I continued making 'attempts'. Have been hospitalised in psychiatric wards many times and have even gone through 'involuntary commitment'.
Now, at 54, I'm losing the stamina to keep fighting. I am so glad I found this forum. No more ropes, razors or pills, I have ordered my SN.
Then one day, when all effort is spent, I hope I can become my Father's son.
(it's nice to meet you all)
Schizophrenia can be hereditary. So he didn't really save us fully because in 1993, whilst deployed, I snapped. After making many 'attempts' I was kicked out of the army.
Fast forward 33 years and my arms are horrifically scared from SH. I continued making 'attempts'. Have been hospitalised in psychiatric wards many times and have even gone through 'involuntary commitment'.
Now, at 54, I'm losing the stamina to keep fighting. I am so glad I found this forum. No more ropes, razors or pills, I have ordered my SN.
Then one day, when all effort is spent, I hope I can become my Father's son.
(it's nice to meet you all)
