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[Lone_Traveler90]

Hi,

I wasn't here for a long time but I had such great experiences here which helped me to stay sane. I want to thank all the people who supported me.

I really hope that all of you can find a peace, weather in death or trying to be alive.

You are amazing community and carry on supporting , this is the only place where you can really be free and speak your mind without judgement.

Love you all.

Peace out

P.s - if I won't succed (cowardice or some other factors like botching it ) I will come back in few hours., if not than admins feel free to delete my account.

 

[Worndown]

I hope your journey goes well.

 

[tchaik18401893]

Hi,

I wasn't here for a long time but I had such great experiences here which helped me to stay sane. I want to thank all the people who supported me.

I really hope that all of you can find a peace, weather in death or trying to be alive.

You are amazing community and carry on supporting , this is the only place where you can really be free and speak your mind without judgement.

Love you all.

Peace out

P.s - if I won't succed (cowardice or some other factors like botching it ) I will come back in few hours., if not than admins feel free to delete my account.

Best wishes. I'm so sorry if you find this disrespectful, but may i ask how you choose to go?

 

[Lone_Traveler90]

Best wishes. I'm so sorry if you find this disrespectful, but may i ask how you choose to go?

No problem, I don't mind sharing about everything. I am gonna do partial leaning forward. If that fails I will hang myself on pull up bar, more painful but should work. I have SN on the the way, but thats another 6-15 days ( if customs won't stop it) plus I would need to get at least meto and I don't know if I csn lie to my doc and specifically ask for meto.

 

[ImpairedLowlife]

I hope you'll find your peace, have a peaceful journey and goodbye

 

[CowsAgainstCapitali]

Best wishes and a peaceful journey to you, fellow human You're always welcome

 

[tchaik18401893]

No problem, I don't mind sharing about everything. I am gonna do partial leaning forward. If that fails I will hang myself on pull up bar, more painful but should work. I have SN on the the way, but thats another 6-15 days ( if customs won't stop it) plus I would need to get at least meto and I don't know if I csn lie to my doc and specifically ask for meto.

I really hope you find peace. Good luck to you. <3

 

[FuneralCry]

Farewell, I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

There's no element of failure here that would make you a coward friend.

Whatever you decide to do, I wish you the very best.

 

[Kurushii]

I do hope everything turns out the way you want it to, and that it is not too unbearable. Wishing you a blissful journey... Goodbye

 

[sincerelysad]

i wish i could've seen this. i wish you peace and joy for eternity.

 

[Lone_Traveler90]

Update

I woke up on the floor with noose around my neck. I drunk and took too many drugs probably knocked me out.

Police woke me up knocking at my door after sending them delayed email so they can find my body
Luckily I managed to talk my way out of pretending I know nothing about it.

What a failure,

 

[stermc]

Update

I woke up on the floor with noose around my neck. I drunk and took too many drugs probably knocked me out.

Police woke me up knocking at my door after sending them delayed email so they can find my body
Luckily I managed to talk my way out of pretending I know nothing about it.

What a failure,

Oh, I am so sorry about this! That's awful.
Maybe now you can wait for the SN and take some time to think things through while it is not with you yet.

I hope you the very best. May you find peace, dead or alive.

And again, I am sorry all of this happened. Take some rest.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

Update

I woke up on the floor with noose around my neck. I drunk and took too many drugs probably knocked me out.

Police woke me up knocking at my door after sending them delayed email so they can find my body
Luckily I managed to talk my way out of pretending I know nothing about it.

What a failure,

I hope that you are able to recover from this both physically and mentally. You're not a failure.

I wish you the best, friend

 

[Lone_Traveler90]

Mods can delete this post btw

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry you have had this experience. It must be very distressing. Don't be hard on yourself though- it's a very difficult thing to do. It's actually very impressive you had the wherewithal to shake off the police so quickly. I hope you have some time now to recover physically and mentally.

 

[Lone_Traveler90]

I'm so sorry you have had this experience. It must be very distressing. Don't be hard on yourself though- it's a very difficult thing to do. It's actually very impressive you had the wherewithal to shake off the police so quickly. I hope you have some time now to recover physically and mentally.

Thank you for kind words. I can't even focus my thoughts at the minute, I feel hatred towards myself that I am still here.

I quickly hidden the rope with pull up bar, also grabbed suicide note and chucked it away when they actually been inside my apartment. I also created new email to send them note so it wasn't logged in on my phone which they checked as well.
That was lucky, next time I can't make mistakes like this.

 

[GasMonkey]

What method are you gonna use next?

 

[Destiny Calls Me]

@Lone_Traveler90 Ive heard of way too many failures this way. I may be making an assumption but I think you jumped the gun without thoroughly examining your plan for failures. If you were able to dismiss the cops, I suggest trying the lottery lol. In all seriousness, my dms are open if you want to reach out.

 

[Lone_Traveler90]

Yeah I didn't fully think it through. I shouldn't have drunk so much.

I am gonna wait for my SN and if days will be unberable to wait I will go for hanging again but this time no alcohol or drugs and deffo not sending any emails.

 

[Destiny Calls Me]

Impulse can take lives as well as save lives. I wish you the best in finding peace. Sometimes it happens at the most unexpected moments. If you decided its what you want just make sure you are in the right mind and place