
FireFox
Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
- 1,914
Hello SS
I turn 25 years old in a few days and I joined this forum at aged 22.
This the only forum where I can truly express my feelings without being judged. In the real world nobody wants to listen or take my feelings seriously. I have finally given up reaching out to people when I am depressed because all they did was let me down when i neeeded them the most. At university I told my friends I was depressed and suicidal one of them stopped talking to me and another began to distance herself from me. My family generally don't listen and just don't take seriously how I feel. I have now accepted I will die in my 30s by suicide and its the best option for me. I really wanted to live and enjoy but didn't know how. I am not strong for this world and deeply disappointed in how my life turned out to be. Knowing everything I know how I would have ended my life at 18.
I want to thank everyone for being so non judgemental and always listening when I feel so low. Its so comforting the replies I receive on my threads. What I love about SS is people here are so real and everyone here has interesting perspectives on life and the wider world.
I apologise for all the times if I ever hurt anyone in my comments or just been annoying. I am aware I can be stubborn and my emotions are all the place. My thoughts are very racing and they don't stop.
Thank you SS for everything
FireFox :)
I turn 25 years old in a few days and I joined this forum at aged 22.
This the only forum where I can truly express my feelings without being judged. In the real world nobody wants to listen or take my feelings seriously. I have finally given up reaching out to people when I am depressed because all they did was let me down when i neeeded them the most. At university I told my friends I was depressed and suicidal one of them stopped talking to me and another began to distance herself from me. My family generally don't listen and just don't take seriously how I feel. I have now accepted I will die in my 30s by suicide and its the best option for me. I really wanted to live and enjoy but didn't know how. I am not strong for this world and deeply disappointed in how my life turned out to be. Knowing everything I know how I would have ended my life at 18.
I want to thank everyone for being so non judgemental and always listening when I feel so low. Its so comforting the replies I receive on my threads. What I love about SS is people here are so real and everyone here has interesting perspectives on life and the wider world.
I apologise for all the times if I ever hurt anyone in my comments or just been annoying. I am aware I can be stubborn and my emotions are all the place. My thoughts are very racing and they don't stop.
Thank you SS for everything
FireFox :)