uxorious
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- Aug 17, 2018
- 58
I've gotten a window of time to leave tomorrow night without any interruption. I was sectioned once before so this time I've waited until my friend has gone out the flat on vacation. She won't return for 2 weeks.
It was so hard to wait. My parents wanted to spend time with me this weekend and knowing it would be the last time they'd see me, I just couldn't say no........ I had dinner with them one last time tonight and tomorrow I am headed back to my flat. I will hang myself 10 pm UK time after having a bit of whiskey.
I'll be using partial suspension in the wardrobe. I tested the knots several times to make sure it would hold my weight. I am using a 10 mm cotton rope, a boom hitch knot on the wardrobe pole, and a simple slip knot on the other end. Last time I tried it I began to lose consciousness so I'm fairly confident this will work. Then again, you can never be 100%..... so you've got to just go for it at a certain point.
I know I wasn't here on SS very long but I am very grateful for this site and found support here. Thank you to @LoverofDeath for having chatted me everyday. You are certainly like the sister I never had.
To you all, I very much hope you all can find peace.. Good luck to everyone! All suffering ends one way or another; never forget that.
It was so hard to wait. My parents wanted to spend time with me this weekend and knowing it would be the last time they'd see me, I just couldn't say no........ I had dinner with them one last time tonight and tomorrow I am headed back to my flat. I will hang myself 10 pm UK time after having a bit of whiskey.
I'll be using partial suspension in the wardrobe. I tested the knots several times to make sure it would hold my weight. I am using a 10 mm cotton rope, a boom hitch knot on the wardrobe pole, and a simple slip knot on the other end. Last time I tried it I began to lose consciousness so I'm fairly confident this will work. Then again, you can never be 100%..... so you've got to just go for it at a certain point.
I know I wasn't here on SS very long but I am very grateful for this site and found support here. Thank you to @LoverofDeath for having chatted me everyday. You are certainly like the sister I never had.
To you all, I very much hope you all can find peace.. Good luck to everyone! All suffering ends one way or another; never forget that.
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