I don't, I'd never enjoy something so torturous and futile as existence, existence to me is a mistake that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and more than anything I wish that this existence was never imposed. I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, it's all I see as positive.