loveable_lamb
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- Jan 20, 2025
- 41
Hey, normally I would've been admitted again by now but the ward postponed it to next week. Awful cuz currently there's some shit going on with my ex-best friend that I didn't wanna be alive for anymore. That's why in previous posts I always said I wanted to die before February 10th. If I would have been admited, at least I'd be a bit safe. I just can't deal with this situation, but I also seem unable to ctb. So I've been using the H I'd use to ctb as a way to cope for a few days now. Never used it before. I know it's fucking dumb but I don't care about my life anyways.
I have mild withdrawals already. I'm not scared for addiction though because I won't be able to use when I am admitted. So I either go to the ward next week, accidentally overdose or find the courage to ctb
I have mild withdrawals already. I'm not scared for addiction though because I won't be able to use when I am admitted. So I either go to the ward next week, accidentally overdose or find the courage to ctb
