brokenwaves
i need to cross a border that’s hard to define
- Feb 19, 2021
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i'm going to ctb in about two months, and most likely i'll only have a risky method to choose. my original plan was to do full suspension in a hotel but i most likely won't be able to do this because i'm living with family and wouldn't be able to excuse myself overnight without risking them freaking out over me being missing. full suspension in a forest as some people do, i don't see how to realistically do. my last option would be jumping from a cliff, which is a risky option especially since the highest cliff near me isn't "ideal" height, but there have been successful suicides there before.
i'm at a point in my life i can't continue and i've known this a long time. i know it's stupid to risk it but it's my only choice i can see realistically. i will try reflecting on other options over the next two months, but forest suspension is not an option whatsoever. only other option i would want to do is hotel but it has its own risks due to family. idk just needed to vent the shit on my mind
i'm at a point in my life i can't continue and i've known this a long time. i know it's stupid to risk it but it's my only choice i can see realistically. i will try reflecting on other options over the next two months, but forest suspension is not an option whatsoever. only other option i would want to do is hotel but it has its own risks due to family. idk just needed to vent the shit on my mind