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CantDoIt

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Jul 18, 2024
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I have a suspicious freckle that has all main four symptoms of melanoma. Now although I'm suicidal, I'm still going to get it checked. The reason is that this particular freckle is close to my eyeball and knowing me I would leave it and then they would have to remove my eye or something. Which would be done because you know how it is with treatments....you basically "have" to do what will maybe save your life. 😭
 
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A few days ago I noticed a bump on my neck and that is a known symptom of thyroid cancer, I've had hypothyroidism for years, tbh for me idk if I would bother getting mine checked because I just don't personally care the only reason I'd maybe want to and if I found out I did is to maybe have a chance to die "naturally" in a way but if anything I'd be more happy if I knew I did than disappointed and I just don't want to "get my hopes up" sounds absolutely horrible and I I know there are different types of thyroid cancers most being treatable and I doubt they'd let me refuse treatment.

But I completely understand what you mean if it is close to your eye I would also want to get something like that checked, I tried avoiding going to doctors appointments because I knew I was going to ctb soon but some stuff you just gotta do incase the plan doesn't work out and then you're stuck with permanent damage. I wish you luck!
 
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chester

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Aug 1, 2024
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As far as I know you can refuse treatment, they can't remove your eye against your will even if your life depended on it. That said, it might just as well be something benign, and it probably is, so try not think of yourself as a cancer patient yet. I'm willing to bet it's nothing serious.
 
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Any adult thought to be of sound mind is allowed to refuse any physical healthcare they so choose. Even if it is a life or death decision, if you are found competent to care for yourself then you have every right to refuse treatment. No one can force you to undergo anything. Skin cancer, especially that close to your eye, would be a very long and painful way to go. To the best of my knowledge skin cancer usually takes a good amount of time to metastasize to the point of being terminal.
 
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CantDoIt

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Jul 18, 2024
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A few days ago I noticed a bump on my neck and that is a known symptom of thyroid cancer, I've had hypothyroidism for years, tbh for me idk if I would bother getting mine checked because I just don't personally care the only reason I'd maybe want to and if I found out I did is to maybe have a chance to die "naturally" in a way but if anything I'd be more happy if I knew I did than disappointed and I just don't want to "get my hopes up" sounds absolutely horrible and I I know there are different types of thyroid cancers most being treatable and I doubt they'd let me refuse treatment.

But I completely understand what you mean if it is close to your eye I would also want to get something like that checked, I tried avoiding going to doctors appointments because I knew I was going to ctb soon but some stuff you just gotta do incase the plan doesn't work out and then you're stuck with permanent damage. I wish you luck!
I'm sorry to hear about your condition and the trouble it causes you! That's how I feel about this, but the potential fallout of regretting not getting treated worries me. If it was on my leg, toe, something like that, maybe not.

There are other types of concerns I would not get looked at, as you said, because I was planning ctb anyway. But this would just be the icing on the cake of things I've already done to neglect my health which spectacularly backfired on me.
Any adult thought to be of sound mind is allowed to refuse any physical healthcare they so choose. Even if it is a life or death decision, if you are found competent to care for yourself then you have every right to refuse treatment. No one can force you to undergo anything. Skin cancer, especially that close to your eye, would be a very long and painful way to go. To the best of my knowledge skin cancer usually takes a good amount of time to metastasize to the point of being terminal.
Right, I am going to get it checked. If I had to ctb I might do it first anyway. From my experience, most cancers are painful. My spouses aunt recently died of, I think, liver cancer or something like that, and it was BAD.

When I mentioned treatment I meant that my relatives would basically make me get treated there is no way I could just tell them to fuck off lmao
As far as I know you can refuse treatment, they can't remove your eye against your will even if your life depended on it. That said, it might just as well be something benign, and it probably is, so try not think of yourself as a cancer patient yet. I'm willing to bet it's nothing serious.
Thanks! If was benign or not, I wouldn't be surprised. Both seem plausible and I'm definitely not considering myself a cancer patient yet.
 
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locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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Well, go get it checked out. I just had 3 "suspicious" spots biopsied on my back. None of them turned out to be cancer. I did get diagnosed with some yeast infection, though, that I'll be treating over, at least, the next 5 months. It's a real pita since I have to use a spatula to apply the cream 2X a day, and another lotion once a day, which has to be rinsed off in a shower after 15 minutes each time. The only reason I even went to the dermatologist is bc my pcp saw the spots on my back and, basically, insisted, that I get them checked out. She's treating me for an auto-immune hypothyroid condition, so I didn't want to "rock the boat" too much by refusing to have the spots looked at. I wasn't functioning very well with my untreated hypo, and I was a little concerned that I wouldn't be able to finish up the stuff I need to before I ctb, so that's why I sought treatment again for my hypo. If it were just the spots, I would never have even bothered getting them checked out. But, the hypo was making me sleep all the time and I wasn't getting enough things done.

I'd go get your spot checked out. It's not worth the potential of losing an eye. You never know how much longer you'll be around.
 
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CantDoIt

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Jul 18, 2024
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Well, go get it checked out. I just had 3 "suspicious" spots biopsied on my back. None of them turned out to be cancer. I did get diagnosed with some yeast infection, though, that I'll be treating over, at least, the next 5 months. It's a real pita since I have to use a spatula to apply the cream 2X a day, and another lotion once a day, which has to be rinsed off in a shower after 15 minutes each time. The only reason I even went to the dermatologist is bc my pcp saw the spots on my back and, basically, insisted, that I get them checked out. She's treating me for an auto-immune hypothyroid condition, so I didn't want to "rock the boat" too much by refusing to have the spots looked at. I wasn't functioning very well with my untreated hypo, and I was a little concerned that I wouldn't be able to finish up the stuff I need to before I ctb, so that's why I sought treatment again for my hypo. If it were just the spots, I would never have even bothered getting them checked out. But, the hypo was making me sleep all the time and I wasn't getting enough things done.

I'd go get your spot checked out. It's not worth the potential of losing an eye. You never know how much longer you'll be around.
Sorry you had to go through all of that!
I feel like it's a chore going to checkups and the like. In my case it's really specific, as you said, because of location.
Back spots I think I would totally ignore altogether. (Unless, of course, I was in the situation to you are describing).
 
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Aug 6, 2024
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You can always refuse treatment. No one is going to tie you up and cut you up against your will.
 
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CantDoIt

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Jul 18, 2024
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You can always refuse treatment. No one is going to tie you up and cut you up against your will.
Yeah I know, I was .more referring to family expectations. Apparently it would still be preferable to die via ctb anyway.
 

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