Surrounded by Npcs

[blueskies3]

Everytime I try to open up about these feelings I get met with platitudes. I havent been able to tell people how I feel for years at this point because im always met with positivity bullshit about how life isn't bad. Life is a blessing. Everyone has problems. Yea well if everyone has problems then why am I the only person who has thought up of suicide as a solution. I swear, the people in my daily life really make me feel like im the only person in the world who has ever been depressed. I hate being surrounded by people who have no idea what it's like to deal with this depression shit that makes you want to poison yourself or put a bullet in your head. Tired of being depressed and tired of no one in my 21 years of life having even a miniscule understanding of how difficult it can make life be. People have no compassion or empathy. They are so inept.
A couple days ago when I was thinking of suicide by SN I thought of leaving a note. I didn't care to leave a note before until I realized that I had to make it clear my death was a suicide. All I would want it to say is
"My only regret is not having done it sooner."

 

[Catscratch]

Hey you are just like me. I see the city as a game's map, and people are just NPCs. It is really surreal. Talking like AI with the same shit words everyday. Lol i hate them so much

 

[blueskies3]

Hey you are just like me. I see the city as a game's map, and people are just NPCs. It is really surreal. Talking like AI with the same shit words everyday. Lol i hate them so much

And that glazed over stare in their eyes. So clueless

 

[LonelyPrince]

I'm sorry you are surrounded by these hollow shells. Unfortunately the majority of people seem to be completely clueless about depression and often think it's just sadness and brush it off. You are right. People have no empathy nor compassion and its rare to find someone who does In this sea of selfishness.
I wish you the best and hope you can find some small relief in between the pain..

 

[blueskies3]

I'm sorry you are surrounded by these hollow shells. Unfortunately the majority of people seem to be completely clueless about depression and often think it's just sadness and brush it off. You are right. People have no empathy nor compassion and its rare to find someone who does In this sea of selfishness.
I wish you the best and hope you can find some small relief in between the pain..

Hollow shells is the perfect way to describe it. You try to get through to them but there's nothing there.

 

[badatparties]

I would avoid calling other human beings NPCs. They're not, it's just that everyone is not as aware as you because they haven't suffered enough to wake up to certain realities.

Calling others zombies or NPCs just makes you sound like an edgelord, and does nothing good for your cause.

 

[blueskies3]

I would avoid calling other human beings NPCs. They're not, it's just that everyone is not as aware as you because they haven't suffered enough to wake up to certain realities.

Calling others zombies or NPCs just makes you sound like an edgelord, and does nothing good for your cause.

Obviously they aren't literal NPCs. Every person is a world of it's own. I'm just so used to the same responses and the same stares I get from people when I try to talk about something real for once. These are the same people that claim "Everyone goes through things." Honesty the most unhelpful and worst kinds of people to talk to. Its been my experience that many people have no type of introspection or desire to understand anything but their narrow minded worldview. Most people aren't aware of anything that requires even the most minimal emotional depth. All they do is breed like animals and inconvenience people like me who are already having a shit time.

Most of the time with the things these types of people say and the actions they take, you have to wonder if they are operating solely on their programming. Its never anything different. My parents are like this. Alot fo people in my area are like this. Probably as close to NPC as u can get
How do i link this funny yt video without destroying my entire thread

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i thought some similar things

 

[iveseenfootage]

most people are happy, it doesn't make them npcs lol. It makes them normal

 

[InevitableDeath]

Obviously they aren't literal NPCs. Every person is a world of it's own. I'm just so used to the same responses and the same stares I get from people when I try to talk about something real for once. These are the same people that claim "Everyone goes through things." Honesty the most unhelpful and worst kinds of people to talk to. Its been my experience that many people have no type of introspection or desire to understand anything but their narrow minded worldview. Most people aren't aware of anything that requires even the most minimal emotional depth. All they do is breed like animals and inconvenience people like me who are already having a shit time.

Most of the time with the things these types of people say and the actions they take, you have to wonder if they are operating solely on their programming. Its never anything different. My parents are like this. Alot fo people in my area are like this. Probably as close to NPC as u can get

Pretty much a good answer to a good question.

Have tried for years with people, and the vast majority of them are just not willing to really think in depth. They are almost all money/place/vanity driven. Worse, they love to bully and stalk and steal and lie.

Sometimes, sadly, NPC is too good a title for them. That's just my lived experience. That being said, if I'd never looked I would never have found the very few who weren't, so if you're young, keep an open mind until you're proved right.

 

[blueskies3]

most people are happy, it doesn't make them npcs lol. It makes them normal

Pretty much a good answer to a good question.

Have tried for years with people, and the vast majority of them are just not willing to really think in depth. They are almost all money/place/vanity driven. Worse, they love to bully and stalk and steal and lie.

Sometimes, sadly, NPC is too good a title for them. That's just my lived experience. That being said, if I'd never looked I would never have found the very few who weren't, so if you're young, keep an open mind until you're proved right.

None so blind as those that will not see.

 

[AcrobaticSilky]

Everytime I try to open up about these feelings I get met with platitudes. I havent been able to tell people how I feel for years at this point because im always met with positivity bullshit about how life isn't bad. Life is a blessing. Everyone has problems. Yea well if everyone has problems then why am I the only person who has thought up of suicide as a solution. I swear, the people in my daily life really make me feel like im the only person in the world who has ever been depressed. I hate being surrounded by people who have no idea what it's like to deal with this depression shit that makes you want to poison yourself or put a bullet in your head. Tired of being depressed and tired of no one in my 21 years of life having even a miniscule understanding of how difficult it can make life be. People have no compassion or empathy. They are so inept.
A couple days ago when I was thinking of suicide by SN I thought of leaving a note. I didn't care to leave a note before until I realized that I had to make it clear my death was a suicide. All I would want it to say is
"My only regret is not having done it sooner."

Most people are dumb and willfully delusional about reality. This isn't their fault however, society wouldn't function if everyone was as realistic as the people on this forum. Who would sign up to work their life away and bring more children into existence if they had a realistic understanding of what life was? I mean a large portion of the human population on the planet is religious or spiritual. Coping mechanisms don't get much more ridiculous or indoctrinated than that.
It's incredibly annoying to be the only person in your irl environment who you know actually engages with the world without unrealistic optimism or just plain denial of how much everything sucks.
I truly don't really trust the current pathology of depression as it's done today. I would think that being sad and disillusioned is an appropriate response when living under dystopian circumstances. However, the current practice is to label anything that keeps someone from being a good wage slave as a disorder. Yet, fully grown adults can make careers and hold prestigious offices whilst spreading their delusional beliefs about fictional deities and characters. Not exactly trying to be disrespectful to people who use religion to cope but I can't imagine how much cognitive dissonance must be required to maintain the belief assuming a person has the ability to use logic.
I've never been able to truly be happy or grateful for things and I've always been met with "there are people who have it worse than you so you should be grateful". The concept of the misfortune of others causing me joy just doesn't make sense to me as a person with empathy. An analogy I use is that I wouldn't be able to enjoy a birthday party if I knew there was a person locked up in the basement of the house nextdoor and that there was nothing I could do about it. Now extrapolate that to all of the meaningless suffering across this planet and throughout history. Yet if you try to explain any of this, an NPC will just look at you with a blank stare and consider calling a mental facility to put you on a psych hold.
I'm not sure if I'll leave a note or not. Honestly if anything I might leave a post on my social media and text my friends advocating for antinatalism so they don't drag any more people into this world. My family members are honestly too dense to understand my motives even if I clearly laid everything out and will resort to blaming "the devil" anyway so I don't think I'll even address them.

 

[InevitableDeath]

I truly don't really trust the current pathology of depression as it's done today. I would think that being sad and disillusioned is an appropriate response when living under dystopian circumstances. However, the current practice is to label anything that keeps someone from being a good wage slave as a disorder.

Exactly. They treat the symptoms (which make BigPharma and the MH industry rich) and not the disease (Capitalism, which makes the billionaires and politicians richer).

We, the consumer/slaves (at best) all have to remain on the plantation. Until we're in the way - see the Gaza Genocide. At which point we're culled.

I mean a large portion of the human population on the planet is religious or spiritual. Coping mechanisms don't get much more ridiculous or indoctrinated than that. Yet, fully grown adults can make careers and hold prestigious offices whilst spreading their delusional beliefs about fictional deities and characters. Not exactly trying to be disrespectful to people who use religion to cope but I can't imagine how much cognitive dissonance must be required to maintain the belief assuming a person has the ability to use logic.

Religion was social control, then media was social control, now AI/GPT will be social control.

Religion's probably the worst as it appropriates all spirituality, which can be as valid as logic imho. Such as humanity's place in the environmental system. Reasons for creativity etc.

extrapolate that to all of the meaningless suffering across this planet and throughout history. Yet if you try to explain any of this, an NPC will just look at you with a blank stare and consider calling a mental facility to put you on a hold.

People do not want to think about it. As to do so, they would have to accept all our systems are illusions, they are pathetic slaves and all their self-delusions are wrong.

That's hard. Especially as if you preach that, you will be immediately exiled or offed.

 

[blueskies3]

Most people are dumb and willfully delusional about reality. This isn't their fault however, society wouldn't function is everyone was as realistic as the people on this forum. Who would sign up to work their life away and bring more children into existence if they had a realistic understanding of what life was? I mean a large portion of the human population on the planet is religious or spiritual. Coping mechanisms don't get much more ridiculous or indoctrinated than that.
It's incredibly annoying to be the only person in your irl environment who you know actually engages with the world without unrealistic optimism or just plain denial of how much everything sucks.
I truly don't really trust the current pathology of depression as it's done today. I would think that being sad and disillusioned is an appropriate response when living under dystopian circumstances. However, the current practice is to label anything that keeps someone from being a good wage slave as a disorder. Yet, fully grown adults can make careers and hold prestigious offices whilst spreading their delusional beliefs about fictional deities and characters. Not exactly trying to be disrespectful to people who use religion to cope but I can't imagine how much cognitive dissonance must be required to maintain the belief assuming a person has the ability to use logic.
I've never been able to truly be happy or grateful for things and I've always been met with "there are people who have it worse than you so you should be grateful". The concept of the misfortune of others causing me joy just doesn't make sense to me as a person with empathy. An analogy I use is that I wouldn't be able to enjoy a birthday party if I knew there was a person locked up in the basement of the house Nextdoor and that there was nothing I could do about it. Now extrapolate that to all of the meaningless suffering across this planet and throughout history. Yet if you try to explain any of this, an NPC will just look at you with a blank stare and consider calling a mental facility to put you on a hold.
I'm not sure if I'll leave a note or not. Honestly if anything I might leave a post on my social media and text my friends advocating for antinatalism so they don't drag any more people into this world. My family members are honestly too dense to understand my motives even if I clearly laid everything out and will resort to blaming "the devil" anyway so I don't think I'll even address them.

This was the comment I was waiting for!!!
I can finally rest easy knowing someone understands the absurdity of it all. Okay its bedtime now, goodnight to everyone.