Suicide Scale

[k75]

There's this suicide scale I use that I wanted to share. I thought it might help someone else. (If it's already been posted, I'm sorry. I haven't seen it.) I don't remember where I found it, but I've used it for awhile and think it's a useful communication tool for my support system.

My best friend knows I'm suicidal and checks on me daily. I gave him a copy, and now he knows exactly how I'm feeling without me having to find the words. Because sometimes I can't; emotions get in the way and I can't say what I mean. But with this little comic, I can just say, "I'm a 9" and we're on the same page. And we can figure out what to do.

It won't help if you don't have someone you can trust like that, but maybe even if you find a partner on here it would help.

Suicide Scale - Emmengard

We recently lost a friend to suicide. Our best friend, Megan, and us, actually made this scale together years ago. We have used it to help each other through the toughest times. When it was really bad, we could just look at each other and say “What number?” and we always knew what the other …...

emmengard.com

 

[TAW122]

This is an interesting scale and at 10 is when people usually do interventions like hospitalization and lock ups and what not. However, it seems like for some people, even going at a solid 7 would warrant detainment and involuntary treatment, force, commitment. I consider myself a "9" on the scale as well and I wouldn't trust anyone IRL with this as it's too risky for me. Hell, even going at a 4 or more would already attract unwanted attention and invasion of my privacy or meddling in my day to day life.

 

[MysticPerception]

Can I be on multiple parts of the scale all at once? I'm always a 9 but I'm not actively planning out my ctb every single moment of the day that would just be insane. I also don't really like the whole I need help call someone forced message it has going but it's a nice scale otherwise.

 

[k75]

It works for me because I do have a trusting relationship with my support person I shared it with. He's completely against me going to the hospital, even when I've been tempted to admit myself. So I can tell him everything.

However, I recognize not everyone has that.

I just thought it could facilitate clearer communication for people who might. Or inspire you to make your own that's more appropriate. The number system is so nice to use. Even if you only use it to check in with yourself, I think it has value.

 

[1DayItWillBover]

Mix between 6, 7 and 8

 

[seho_j]

I'm technically at a 9 because I have a plan that I will off myself in a few years. But that will take a long time, so I guess more of a 7/8.
It definitely would be better for me to convey my suicidal ideation with numbers, since I don't like talking about feelings. I think I will share this to a close friend.

 

[Flippy]

Yesterday I would have probably say I had climbed down from a 9 to maybe a 5 or 6. Today I feel like I'm on my way to 9 again. Might sound strange but I'm more sick of feeling a little bit better than I am of feeling unwell. It feels like a false promise. :-/

 

[Polly]

Bouncing between 7and 9

 

[Flippy]

Bouncing between 7and 9

Sorry to hear that. :-( 9 is a real pain in the arse. I hope you will be bouncing between the lower numbers soon :-)

 

[Reallyreallyreally]

Right now I am a solid 8.5. I was 9 earlier but I talked to my friend I've been staying for. I want her not to care if I stay so I can pop up to 9.5.

 

[Maravillosa]

Well, I have been at a 5 for several months now, but I was up to an 8 in the last year.

 

[LittleJem]

Here's another suicide scale I have seen before - I think for me I like the words rather than the pictures, but probably lots of people prefer pictures.

This one doesn't keep mentioning getting help :) So in some ways, as a pro-choice person and in my current state of mind, I like this one more:

https://natashatracy.com/mental-illness-issues/suicide/scale-suicide-suicidal-you/

 

[k75]

Here's another suicide scale I have seen before - I think for me I like the words rather than the pictures, but probably lots of people prefer pictures.

This one doesn't keep mentioning getting help :) So in some ways, as a pro-choice person and in my current state of mind, I like this one more:

https://natashatracy.com/mental-illness-issues/suicide/scale-suicide-suicidal-you/

Thanks for posting that! I like it.

I might see if my sister would be interested I helping me illustrate it.


So I think the issue everyone has with the other is that it does discuss getting help. I get that, totally. You've got to remember it was made by someone for their own use, and they wanted help and not to kill themselves. It's not some pro-lifer propaganda.

I love it because it's in easy to reference comic form, and I think it conveys the severity of my feelings well. Plus it's strangely cute and funny. If I'm inclined to actually use it, I do want help. I think my ultimate red flag is when I cheat and lie about where I am on the scale. Or if I were to not even ask for help.


I'm about a 7 right now, but I've been a solid 9.5 all week due to how freaked out I've been about my medical issues.

Thanks for sharing how youre all feeling.

 

[LittleJem]

@k75 Thanks for your kind response. To me and to all of us.

 

[Defenestrator]

I think I'm at 9. I made the note over two weeks ago and I edited/updated it two days ago. I have everything in place to finally do it but I'm still here - I'm flitting between "fuck it" and finally doing it and a tentative glimmer of hope that things may improve...

 

[LittleJem]

I'm at a 7 - because I have stuffed myself today with 1 x 150mg Moclobemide, 2 x Siberian Ginseng, 2 x 5HTP (don't try this at home), 1 x Lithium Orotate and then in the evening some weed.

Without that, I'd be a 9. What to stuff down myself tomorrow!

 

[Pallf]

I'm probably a mixture of 5-9? I got to ten once. Very good chart and I'm glad you shared it with us.

 

[Darkbrett]

Hit that 10 an hour ago....... @#%#
Am an 8 now........

 

[Broken Chimera]

I'm around an 8 constantly and this time ik not to reach out for help. Off topic but I never knew Emmengard had a friend ctb or that they made that scale. Makes me sad.

 

[BlackCatTalk]

Definitely a 9, I already have everything ready and my expiration date, although I still work and teach and I am somewhat lazy to write farewell letters, I am also bad with words but ultimately I think it does not reach the middle of August so nine is my lucky number.

 

[Thinking]

Definitely a 9, I already have everything ready and my expiration date, although I still work and teach and I am somewhat lazy to write farewell letters, I am also bad with words but ultimately I think it does not reach the middle of August so nine is my lucky number.

Wow that quote you attached describes me perfectly. I thought I was alone in feeling that way, so thank you for that

 

[BlackCatTalk]

Wow that quote you attached describes me perfectly. I thought I was alone in feeling that way, so thank you for that

You are not, you are never alone, I send u a hug and if u need something PM me!

 

[Life_and_Death]

having a personality disorder its difficult for people to tell how im going to react to things. thank you for sharing this. i sent it to my friend :)

 

[so tired or manic]

I have chased off every friend. I don't let anyone get close. Now if someone gets close my brain goes into panic mode and I hover at 9, if not 10, until I'm on my own again, where I can be around 6 or 7 if not 5. When I'm higher on the scale I'm quick to act out and unintentionally wind up hurting everyone.

 

[woxihuanni]

As far as my own emotional state is concerned, I am always zero and it is my (ex)partner who insists that I be 10 as soon as possible. It is frustrating me more everyday that suicide is normally more of an internal world thing and I am alone even in this. 'Recovery' does not apply when you are happy to eat a salted cucumber but have to die because somebody robbed you blind.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I'm only at 8, time to bump my numbers up

 

[maru.]

On my good days i fluctuate between 4 & 5.
On my average days, 6 & 7.
On my bad days, 8, but if things in my life go the way i think they will, this will be a 9 or a 10 very soon.

It's funny, now that i think of it, when i was a bit younger, just a few years ago, before i developed depression for the first time, a 4 would be my absolute worst.
Now it's my best.
All it took was a few years, a few bad choices, a few sad experiences.
Just the passage of time.

 

[Intheo]

I fluctuate from 4 to 9

 

[Cashewmilk]

I'm a 1 when I do my drugs, I can literally feel the dopamine shoot up lol.

 

[Quinlor]

Very interesting, in the past I always was in 10, 9 or 8 but now I probably am in 5 or 4.