Help Suicide over losing Discord community

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

Ostracized June 2021 and then January of 2022 my best friend left to rejoin the group and they smeared me for a year.

It's a mental health oriented Discord. The best friend I spend 750 hours with in 3 months early 2021. We had a close mutual 3 year long friendship.

I'm totally alone with mental illness worse than I could've ever imagined it being (severe OCD ~ emotional contamination and CPTSD, both diagnosed), 1.25 years inpatient and 5 years of therapy total, etc.

It feels like a valid reason to commit suicide over although I'm going with euthanasia because it's a slightly less bad way to die

I have thousands upon thousands of messages, memories, art, and moments I'd like to archive but uncertain whom to leave them to or with or where to store it for the long term or why it's just proof of my existence ...

Any advice is appreciated!!

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

You mean you want to ctb now instead of waiting for your euthanasia appointment ? idk, I think it's better to wait because the euthanasia is a guaranteed way to get peace and there are no ways for it to go wrong and fail

 

[itsallpointless]

Unofficial SaSu Discord server

I've setup a Discord with currently 34 members. I've had permission from a mod to publish it here. It is strictly 18+ and has most channels set into place. Feel free to join the community but read the rules first. Posting of gore, porn, death people aren't allowed and will result in a perma ban...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[FuneralCry]

I envy you for being able to get euthanasia, it sounds so ideal to me not having to plan a method and having the option to exit so peacefully. But anyway you just cannot trust and rely on people in this world, humans can be so unnecessarily cruel and that is just the unfortunate reality.