Is anyone else writing a note ? How did you feel after writing it ? I wasn't sure if I would be leaving one but I didn't want them wondering about my death. I just finished writing my note to my family. And it makes all of this feel incredibly real and it's open my eyes of how serious I am about this. Just 4 more weeks until I go to my reserved Airbnb place to finally ctb. Time has never gone this slow before.
fastFWD
running out of time...
- Feb 12, 2019
- 151
i have written two notes in the past and each time i finished writing one i felt a sense of relief as if a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. in effect it just felt really good to be able to get everything that had been locked/hidden inside finally out and explained.
and i agree with you, as the notes i wrote definitely hit me with a wave of realism.
i am sad that life has lead you down this path but it sounds like you have everything planned out well at least :(
i just wanted to say also that i share your exact sentiment from another post you made of 'just wanting to be loved and to love someone back.' That's all I ever wanted in life too, which is pretty deep imo and yet seems so simple.
I've concluded that the concept of love includes many other (unnecessary and superficial) components for others, and that these often unspoken differences in foundations/beliefs are what make it difficult for people to connect and stay connected.
but i digress and i hope that you are able to find happiness in the weeks ahead <3
and i agree with you, as the notes i wrote definitely hit me with a wave of realism.
i am sad that life has lead you down this path but it sounds like you have everything planned out well at least :(
i just wanted to say also that i share your exact sentiment from another post you made of 'just wanting to be loved and to love someone back.' That's all I ever wanted in life too, which is pretty deep imo and yet seems so simple.
I've concluded that the concept of love includes many other (unnecessary and superficial) components for others, and that these often unspoken differences in foundations/beliefs are what make it difficult for people to connect and stay connected.
but i digress and i hope that you are able to find happiness in the weeks ahead <3
I'm planning to record a video of myself to serve as a will and a suicide note. In addition to that, I'll leave a written note in the hotel room as a backup, and to point where I left the video file and any documents.
Thank you so much. I'm so glad I found this website. There so many people here that relate to me or are so understanding a lot more than people around me in real life. I love the support you get from everyone here. I hope you find what you're looking for and more!
Leesap
Member
- Jul 5, 2019
- 43
I don't think I'll have a note. They'll just say, "but why didn't she come to me? Why didn't she ask me for help?" I did, don't you remember - I got no reply. Or, totally unrealistic advice. "Sell all your possessions for a one way ticket here and live with us" right. In a country I don't know with absolutely no money, nothing. Great!
Chaoticbpd
Member
- Feb 11, 2020
- 13
I have been writing notes for days but keep ripping them up and rewriting them. I can't leave without letting my family I love them but I also don't want to make anyone feel guilty or seem to pass any blame as this my decision alone. I also don't know if I should write a will it all very complicated
a.n.kirillov
velle non discitur
- Nov 17, 2019
- 1,831
Exactly! I keep turning them into twenty page long essays about determinism to prove that no one is guilty D-:
Or I start condemning everyone and everything and try to convince them not to procreate.
Deleted member 15021
Member
- Feb 13, 2020
- 25
I'll be writing a note for family/friends in the days leading up to my suicide and editing it for clarity. I've only written a few notes with a multitude of previous attempts, but I know this one will work and it feels right to try and give my family/friends closure as much as possible. I know either way there's going to be the question of "what more could I have done?" but I'm hoping the note will help, alongside the knowlwdge that this was a long time coming. I want to be SO careful about my language, though; even if people have hurt me I won't mention it as I don't want anyone to believe this was anyone's decision but my own.
Anon2662
Just a girl trapped in a psychological prison
- Feb 13, 2020
- 366
Im going to write a note for my family, but I keep trying to write them and then ripping them up. Finding the right words is so difficult when they can't truly understand and I don't want them to feel like they could have done more or that it was their fault. It's the one thing I feel guilty about. The hurt I will be causing them 
highlyvolatile
I don't know anymore.
- Feb 14, 2020
- 278
I've written several notes. One overall note, one to my ex, and several inbetween drafts. I think I had settled on the one I was going with. I shared it with a close friend first, who has always been supportive of me. (I met her through reddit and shes an absolute delight I love her.) She read ir snd the only thing she asked was for me to tell her when I was going and how soon. I want to make it public but I feel it would be best to wait until I have decided how I want to make my exit.
