Suicide Grief & Ctb

[depressedlover]

My Boyfriend Ctb 1 month and few weeks ago,I feel empty and alone without him.I'm going through a lot of pain and sadness.His last words for me were " You need to live and be happy " and that he loved me.Ever since he died i haven't been happy,i can't do life without him.I attempted suicide two days after his death by od but unfortunately… or fortunately (depending on your point of view) was found in the morning and rushed to the hospital.I regret my failure because i still want to be with him almost two months later.I'm still convinced and had been researching a lot on the successful way possible that's when i bumped into SS.After failure I tried convincing my mom and bro that they should release me because i felt so much pain but they were very adamant and sad.I know it will hurt them eventually because they'll only remain 2 of them but i feel the main reason i will be living is for them not for me.It feels selfish from both sides depending on your perspective.I don't know if there's someone else in my situation.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be hard to deal with what you are going through but at least all those who are free from this world cannot suffer anymore. Unfortunately I don't think that it's the best idea being so open about wanting to die as I think it's unlikely that other people will approve of the decision to die in this anti suicide society. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[outrider567]

My Boyfriend Ctb 1 month and few weeks ago,I feel empty and alone without him.I'm going through a lot of pain and sadness.His last words for me were " You need to live and be happy " and that he loved me.Ever since he died i haven't been happy,i can't do life without him.I attempted suicide two days after his death by od but unfortunately… or fortunately (depending on your point of view) was found in the morning and rushed to the hospital.I regret my failure because i still want to be with him almost two months later.I'm still convinced and had been researching a lot on the successful way possible that's when i bumped into SS.After failure I tried convincing my mom and bro that they should release me because i felt so much pain but they were very adamant and sad.I know it will hurt them eventually because they'll only remain 2 of them but i feel the main reason i will be living is for them not for me.It feels selfish from both sides depending on your perspective.I don't know if there's someone else in my situation.

15 months for me, every day is beyond depressing, constant and unrelenting

 

[depressedlover]

15 months for me, every day is beyond depressing, constant and unrelenting

How do you cope with it?

 

[outrider567]

How do you cope with it?

Unlike your boyfriend, my girlfriend of 35 years loved life, and she was gone in just 4 days--I am not coping with it well at all, which is why I'm here, still get tears in my eyes almost every day, I see myself continuing to have a pointless bleak and lonely life without her, nothing makes sense anymore, nothing matters anymore--I was all set to CTB last April after my Nitrogen tank finally came, but my brother's failed battle against lung cancer had just begun and his funeral was 6 days ago--I've tested my Nitrogen tank several times--It would take me just one minute to turn the tank on and then put the Hood on, and then....peaceful oblivion--Its only a matter of time