Suicide feels comforting

[Fallen]

It feels strange to know that I can ctb. While I don't have any immediate plans, knowing that I can do it is somewhat comforting. Kinda like "I don't really care how much worse things can get, I could just kill myself tomorrow." And this way of thinking kept me going for a quite a while. I guess it's kinda like the more morbid version of "I should live another day because tomorrow could be better."

 

[Sinbad]

True but this thought comes with many unwanted side effects. Like brain fog, low energy, no motivation, clumsiness etc..
Knowing you can take the easy way out will have the above mentioned effects.

Ideally one does not think about CTB at all and fight which will strengthen one's character and body.

 

[leaps]

It gives me a sense of control

 

[gnrluver0105]

"The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night."
— Friedrich Nietzsche

 

[21Neberg]

I love it, and I know I'm going to attempt one day. It's the solution to all my problems and I can't wait to be dead.