Story suicidal journey

[bbye111]

funny how being suicidal somehow led me to weird and amazing hobbies and places... in search for a place to ctb, i discovered peaceful places along the way and enjoyed the time strolling with people i met and befriended due to the "same" interest in nature and quiet places.

i used to self-harm, since i dont care about my body or if i get hurt, i got into kickboxing as a sport and competed, met tonss of people too.

its been a ride honestly, now im into ctb using a gun since i dont want to repeat hanging due to my traumatic failed attempts, in further research about it, who knows if ill get into a shooting range, meet people and get it as another weird hobby my life will revolve around again or get obssessed in gun-related games due to my knowledge, meet friends with the "same" interest

or just get caught illegally buying firearms in our city. haha! who knows.

 

[dopaminedeath]

Expect no less from a cowboy

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm pleased for you that you have found some benefit to being suicidal. It sounds awful failing hanging though, that's what I fear so it must be a relief having the option of a method that you see as being more preferable.