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ThirteenthStep

ThirteenthStep

We are eternal, all this pain is an illusion
Jul 30, 2021
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My boyfriend, C, broke up with me a couple nights ago. We had been dating/living together for 1 year.

I've loved him since the first time I met him 16 years ago in high school, and we've dated on and off for 10 years. I've always felt like he's my soulmate and this year was the longest time we've ever been together. I've never had feelings like this for anyone else and I've never really dated anyone else. He's the one.

We lasted so long this time that I believed this time was the time he was going to finally stay. I thought we had grown and matured over the years so that we could finally be together for good, like I always dreamed of.

It hurts so much. I'll never kiss, hug,, or hold him again. And it's not okay. I'm researching suicide methods.
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
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Its okay to feel suicidal and search for methods. In the meantime, just try and focus on other things as well and give yourself time to feel emotionally separated from the breakup. Maybe even start socializing with people and new potential partners after you feel you grieved enough for the relationship. CTB is a final decision and can be done anytime. I think you owe it to yourself to give yourself sometime to experience your life without being in relationship with that person.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I can imagine it must be painful going through this. It can be devastating to lose someone that we loved. I'm sorry you are in this situation. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.
 
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saveusy2n

saveusy2n

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Jan 2, 2022
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Can you tell, why exactly you broke up
 
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feel something

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Dec 14, 2021
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i'm sorry that you're going through this. a broken heart is one of the worst feelings. do you have anyone with who you can talk? big hug:hug:
 
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Aboutblue

Aboutblue

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Aug 11, 2021
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I'm right there with you. Nine year relationship. Wish I was strong enough to end my life.
 
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Elri

Elri

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Dec 2, 2021
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My boyfriend, C, broke up with me a couple nights ago. We had been dating/living together for 1 year.

I've loved him since the first time I met him 16 years ago in high school, and we've dated on and off for 10 years. I've always felt like he's my soulmate and this year was the longest time we've ever been together. I've never had feelings like this for anyone else and I've never really dated anyone else. He's the one.

We lasted so long this time that I believed this time was the time he was going to finally stay. I thought we had grown and matured over the years so that we could finally be together for good, like I always dreamed of.

It hurts so much. I'll never kiss, hug,, or hold him again. And it's not okay. I'm researching suicide methods.
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