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ilovemydog

Member
Dec 15, 2021
57
Sorry I don't have much to talk about. I feel like I'm at the end. I've tried every possible resource to manage depression over the past 20+ years. I've finally come to the conclusion that suffering is worse than being dead.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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I feel the same way
 
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NoAIarmsNoSurprises

NoAIarmsNoSurprises

soon this will all just be a bad memory
Jan 18, 2024
39
I'm at that point with you. I don't know what happens and anyone who claims that they do is either delusional or trying to sell a lie. All I know is that it can't be any worse than here.
 
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Venessolotic

Venessolotic

Antinatalism + Promortalism
Jan 19, 2024
71
I'am in agreement. Catching the bus is always preferable to enduring life and all the pain that comes with it.
 
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mortuarymary

mortuarymary

Enlightened
Jan 17, 2024
1,363
My only worry with death is it will be painful then I'm dead and I'm still suffering. Mad, I know. I will only CTB when I'm 100% ready and not to rush.
only you know the answer my friend.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
Being dead isn't even bad at all as it's impossible to suffer whilst being dead and the cessation of good things doesn't matter either since you aren't sentient to care about being deprived of good things
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,846
In my case I'd certainly see it as better to not exist under all circumstances, I don't understand people who act like ceasing to exist is the worst outcome possible when there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this cruel and futile existence. But anyway I hope that you find peace eventually, it really sounds like you've suffered a lot and it must be really tiring what you've been through.
 
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Wormfood

Wormfood

I like people... I said it
May 23, 2022
131
In my case I'd certainly see it as better to not exist under all circumstances, I don't understand people who act like ceasing to exist is the worst outcome possible when there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this cruel and futile existence. But anyway I hope that you find peace eventually, it really sounds like you've suffered a lot and it must be really tiring what you've been through.
I really admire the way you write. Are you a native speaker of English or do you read a lot of books? Such good use of the language is uncommon
 
Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2023
423
Being dead is just the great nothingness at least if you are a secular person or just don't believe in notions of the afterlife. Great nothingness seems preferable to miserable existence.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,846
I really admire the way you write. Are you a native speaker of English or do you read a lot of books? Such good use of the language is uncommon
Yes I am, I only speak and understand the English language.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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Agree, I suffer every day, eventually I will have to end it
 
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ilovemydog

Member
Dec 15, 2021
57
My only worry with death is it will be painful then I'm dead and I'm still suffering. Mad, I know. I will only CTB when I'm 100% ready and not to rush.
only you know the answer my friend.
Everyone dies eventually, so why are we all fearing it. We can't outrun death lol
 
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