successful SN delivery

[ge0rge]

fellow depressos,

I have prevailed. Many weeks after ordering (which happened around 6 Nov), I am now in possession of the sweet sweet powder, sent my way by courtesy of our mutual friend in P. I sniffed at it and it smells chemical AF. Like industrial. It's stuck in the back of my throat. Kind of iffy.

Very strange seeing death bottled so neatly and so cleanly. I'd expected a stronger reaction on my part -- fear or elation or a mixture of both -- but I'm just mildly amused. I can't take any of this seriously, it feels like a pretentious comedy.

I probably won't be using it soon, and I definitely won't be snorting any of it impulsively. If I'm serious about it, a lot of deliberation and planning and organizing is in order. I'm just writing this to assure people that there's a lot of merit to waiting. (paging @MeltingHeart especially)

Trust in our friends with unpronounceable names.

 

[ThingWithFeathers]

The control over one's own destiny and the certainty that appears from doubtful scenarios gives us joy, doesn't it?

You write very good, Ge0rge... Ge0rge with a zero... kinda black comedy genre... dark satire. Stay happy!

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Make mine a double shotgun depresso to go please. Patience and time are virtues not all of us can afford. It can feel like forever when you're waiting on that sweet deliverance.

I'm glad to hear you finally got ahold of yours though. Now you can put that part of your mind at ease and see where you go from there.

 

[BPD_LE]

Make mine a double shotgun depresso to go please.

 

[Ark]

Congrats, there is a feeling of control that is very appealing when you know you have that control, your way, in your own hands.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

That's how I felt when my SN came. Now I am more relaxed with the idea of ctb. My way out is right there. In my drawer waiting for me when I decide...

 

[MeltingHeart]

Ha-thanks for the page- I know why u said this!