stuck thinking about how my friends will react

[muu]

i think about it a lot, a little too much probably? i feel very selfish when i think about it

i hope my friends and family will miss me and remember me. you really do die twice, once when you physically die and again when you are forgotten. i'm sooo scared of being forgotten. my life meant nothing if no one even thinks of me.

i don't think anyone will be too surprised given how much i complain about my disabilities on a daily basis LOL but then again when i'm with my friends, i'm a lot more jokey and pretend to not be as affected as i actually am. i wonder if they'll find my sasu account someday, or if any of them are secretly here like i am.

am i a bad person for wondering how everyone will react? does anyone else do this? i hate feelin' like this, can't help it.

 

[underairpressure]

I think it's perfectly natural to wonder/worry about how people will react. And whether it's "selfish" or not, I think it's also natural to want to be remembered........ to want to know that your life meant something to people.

I understand the guilt, though...... I also worry I'm "selfish" or awful for wanting to be thought of by others.

 

[Dr.Duck]

I don't think it's selfish to think about how they'll react. I think that's quite the opposite, you care and wonder what will happen. Your not thinking about yourself your thinking about others around you.