Stuck in bed

[niiina]

I can't get up, all I do is go to the toilet and eat some comfort food sometimes, then I spend most of the time without eating to not move, the worse thing is that I have panic attacks all day long and have flashbacks of my life and experiences in the past that I'll never be able to have again and this makes me panic even more.
I can't do basic things like taking a shower, brushing my teeth etc and this has been a while I'm this tied on bed.
I tried to partial and full suspension once and will try again and I don't even mind to die filthy, that's the point I arrived. I'm merging to my bed.

Does anyone identify?

 

[Pluto]

I'm in bed as I write this. I know how you feel exactly.

It is very hard to break this cycle alone. I had a housemate at one point who got me into an exercise routine, which at least gives me something now and then. I have to work a few days also to sustain the luxury of my bed days.

I will say one thing: please brush your teeth no matter what, as they are extremely painful and expensive to restore later in life if you do recover.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I spend all day in bed. No motivation to do anything more.