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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
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There was this thread that I wanted to reply to and I instead got a message that my post is waiting for the mods' approval. I didn't use swear words, and I wasn't rude or harsh. Now I'm paranoid that I did something wrong.

And that's not the only instance of paranoia that I struggle with. In january the green light on my phone which signalizes the use of camera or microphone turned on by itself randomly and I heard clicking noises. I brought the phone to a phone repair shop and instead of explaining what was wrong in detail I was only told that it was a software problem.

It didn't happen again, but I'm constantly paranoid that someone is watching me on my phone camera.

I have no idea how that happened. I'm overweight, unattractive, didn't click any suspicious links, not a public figure etc.

I don't even know if I want any advice on this, I might become more paranoid if for instance someone explained that it can be done through Bluetooth or something. But paranoia might be what finally does me in. I don't want to live in a world that won't grant me privacy and anonymity. For the record, I got diagnosed with depression followed by psychotic elements but not schizophrenia.

I don't do anything illegal nor do I watch porn, but it's still uncomfortable to think that someone out there knows all about my preferences and looks out to capitalize off of it.

All I trust now is Death and SN. Even if every other problem got solved, the paranoia will forever stay.
 
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nool

nool

He who has not tasted grapes says sour
Aug 17, 2025
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I'm sorry you're dealing with that. I suffer from constant paranoid delusions, so I understand the fear completely. Paranoia is such a shitty thing to deal with. I hope things get better for you🫂 Wishing you the best
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
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I'm sorry you're dealing with that. I suffer from constant paranoid delusions, so I understand the fear completely. Paranoia is such a shitty thing to deal with. I hope things get better for you🫂 Wishing you the best
Hey, thanks for replying, it means a lot. I'm sorry that you are dealing with a similar thing. Paranoia truly is horrific and messes one's reality and relationships up so bad. I guess what's left is that we surround ourselves with trustworthy people who can reassure us about what is true and what isn't, at least that helps me (though only sometimes). I hope that you have or find good coping mechanisms. Soon I'm going to the doctor (after an important exam) so maybe he'll give me stronger meds. I wish you the best as well!🤗
 
58Alice85

58Alice85

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Aug 31, 2025
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This isnt really paranoid or delusional, all these tech keeps personal data and intrudes upon your privacy. Just keep in mind it does this with everyone, you aren't personally being targeted or something.
 
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fedup1982

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Jul 17, 2025
375
I just came out of a BAD psychosis. My advice: tell your psychiatrist how you're feeling and what you're thinking, and give them time to help you.
 

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