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TrappedGnostic
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- Jun 3, 2025
- 31
The past few weeks have been mentally taxing. I still show up, work, exercise, try to make room for my hobbies and so forth, but the loneliness has started getting to me. It sucks being a gay man with no relationship and sex experience nearing 30, and I keep getting rejected and ghosted in the apps because I'm ugly. I'm trying to hold on to life by reading the stories of distraught relatives and friends that lost loved ones to ctb, essentially guilt-tripping me, but I'm struggling. I'm so jealous of other people whose life is much more effortless and who are sought after by others etc. I've always been a weirdo and a circus freak and my losing streak will never change.