Discussion Stressed about CTB timing

[NightshadeDreamer]

I don't want to turn 30 in late May. I know it may be irrational, but I wanted to die at 29. I was actually planning on CTB via Nortriptyline OD this weekend. But my friends cousin just died.. My sister whom I love so much has booked flights to see me on my birthday. I'm struggling, I was going to CTB on a weekend and there's three between now and my birthday. So now I'm not sure what to do. Is 30 that old to die? Do I wait so I won't make people suffer terribly or do I just do it selfishly despite everything.. Idk.

 

[Someone123]

If there is doubt then I personally would choose to visit with your sister if you like her, but it's your decision. I don't think a certain age would be a reason for me, it depends on my life- health pressures, financial pressurem loneliness, etc- the life situation would be the key for me, not a certain age- each person is different though.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that only you can decide what you should do, other people cannot say as they aren't experiencing life in the same way. But nobody is obligated to suffer and delay their inevitable fate against their wishes, it's a personal decision deciding when to leave this world and anyway grief and loss are just an inevitable part of existing here, no matter what time someone dies other people will be sad, but we all have to die anyway.

 

[NightshadeDreamer]

I think that only you can decide what you should do, other people cannot say as they aren't experiencing life in the same way. But nobody is obligated to suffer and delay their inevitable fate against their wishes, it's a personal decision deciding when to leave this world and anyway grief and loss are just an inevitable part of existing here, no matter what time someone dies other people will be sad, but we all have to die anyway.

You're right, nobody should be forced to suffer in this life. I think I've come to the decision that I would think about it again I a week and reevaluate.