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madbananas
Wizard
- Apr 29, 2020
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So someone on another website who knows I'm seriously thinking about ending my life (I have the rope now) has been messaging me saying he wants to meet up with me, watch me do it and take pictures of me while I'm doing it and after I've done it. I said no. Now he is getting on at me saying I need to let other people into my life if I want a possibility of things getting better (which I do - but alas it's too late, false hope even, the stupid thing keeping me here). He was also telling me that it is certain a specific person in my life has left me behind for good and will never talk to me again. He knows fine well about my abandonment problems as well so him using language like that is just the worst (and I've made him aware of this). And he claims he feels the same as me, that he's been through the exact same thing. I am actually living in hell.
edit: funnily enough as horrible as it is, it is actually quite comforting in a confusing, sick way that someone would go to that effort for me. Being cut off my so many people at one time does strange things to me!
edit: funnily enough as horrible as it is, it is actually quite comforting in a confusing, sick way that someone would go to that effort for me. Being cut off my so many people at one time does strange things to me!
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