Discussion Strange feelings

[Struggling]

Does anyone else feel more sense of achievement when they get further with an attempt?

I've been dabbling with the night night method and think I started convulsing (if that's the right term)but hadn't passed out. My arm started involuntary moving. Anyone had this?

I'm asking really as when I'm dabbling I'd like to be aware if what I'm experiencing is going to lead me to finally ctb or if I'm wasting my time.

 

[Struggling]

??????

 

[Powderedmonster]

Yes! And the less I get with an attempt, the more cowardly I feel. I'm almost hoping to ctb just to prove to myself that I'm not a pussy, and that I can do it.

 

[CornerE]

It's more about the reasons why you wanna ctb = The triggers .
Failure or succes in previous attempts are unrelative .
So isn't the availability of methods , it won't push you away or towards suicidal thoughts or give you more guts to overcome survival extinct .

You'll have the impulse to do it for real reasons , it has nothing to do with attempts .
Prolifers know that and that's why they try to pan and abort effective methods thinkings that they'll look good innocent that way .
While actually they do everything they can to increase your pain and suffer .
They're fucking sadistic freaks who enjoy torturing people out of their minds .