Stopping eating

[rachybee]

I think i will stop eating again. I will ante ro get today over with. But yea. I feel better when I don't eat. The longest was 19 days when I was In psych ward recently.

I felt mentally better? So I think I'm gonna do that again - and hopefully it will make my body weaker so I can definitely die when my SN gets here

 

[pointblank]

Is that dry fast or water fast?

 

[rachybee]

Is that dry fast or water fast?

I have one coffee per day. I don't trust water so don't tend to drink it. After a while if my stuff isn't here yet I will transfer to a dry fast tho I've only managed 3 days doing that

 

[mattoman]

I have one coffee per day. I don't trust water so don't tend to drink it. After a while if my stuff isn't here yet I will transfer to a dry fast tho I've only managed 3 days doing that

Out of curiosity, what does it mean not to trust water? What's there not to trust?

 

[rachybee]

Out of curiosity, what does it mean not to trust water? What's there not to trust?

It freaks me out. I panic that it's putting weight on me which I don't like. I'm aware after many discussions with professionals it's probably not rational. But I still panic a out it
I hope this kills me. If not I do have my SN on the way. But not eating. So easy. Then stop fluids. It should work

 

[rachybee]

Well that's it. I've finished eating.

 

[LukaParrot]

I'm doing the oposite, eating some things I like.

"They" say that afterlife (if you believe in this), what you most gonna miss is eating, without a body, there is no need for food. Also there is no physical contact, maybe that's why besides all we suffer..... we may want to come back.

So... til my day, I eat when I want, what I want. Looks life a joke, but it's like my last meals.

I'm kinda terrifed with my mind state, kinda death serious and apathetic, I accept my CTB but at least going to try to enjoy my last days the best as possible.