Venting Still in a bad place but this time I have no method

[Kokichi]

So, I survived an attempt with SN back in April because I started dealing with effects of it before I could get enough down for it to be fully effective and also my bro heard me making noise. Now I feel so lost. That was supposed to me my method. The reliable one. And now I don't have anything. And for what? Because I struggled with the taste of SN and ended up in the hospital. I don't even know what to do now. I'm in so much mental and emotional pain literally every day, and I'm spiraling again, hence why I'm using this account for the first time in a hot second. I dunno, I'm just tired and I feel like there will never be a way out that works for me that doesn't involve a bunch of suffering. I'm not even like, looking for advice or anything. I just needed somewhere to let that out... Keeping that in my head was just making me feel worse.

 

[Meowkin]

I'm sorry for your pain. It's ok to rant especially if you feel it helps.

 

[randomz]

I am in a similar position like you, just that I don't have any attempts in my past. You can always PM me if you need to talk to someone.

 

[throwaway678-]

I'm sorry you are in such a horrible situation. I'm also stuck with no method after a similar experience (was caught attempting, sent to a hospital). All I can say is I understand where you're coming from and there's nothing wrong with venting.

 

[GoneGoneGone]

I'm sorry for how you must be feeling. I'm in the same exact situation and all I can do is wait, and try to buy SN again, and sit quiet this time after I take it.