Daydream Believer
Member
- May 3, 2024
- 52
Yesterday, a friend gave me a kilo of sn. I stashed it away. I have been dreaming of ending it all for almost a year but have to face the truth - I cannot CTB because I am a single dad to my 15 year old son. His mum left when he was four and he hasn't seen her since and not heard from her for years. He has nobody in the world but me. So I must live for his sake. And my rescue dog's sake too.
Therefore, I have to change my mindset. Easier said than done. Rather than living in misery because I cannot CTB, I try y focus on the things I can do. I walk on the beaches on this tropical island, in the jungle, visit remote waterfalls and remote islands. Of course I take my son and dog with me. I am just trying to make the most out of a bad situation. Always look on the bright side of life.
Or should that be always look on the bright side of death?
You wouldn't want a holiday in my head lol.
I just live one day at a time, but accepting that CTB is not an option has made life easier.
Love n Light xx
Therefore, I have to change my mindset. Easier said than done. Rather than living in misery because I cannot CTB, I try y focus on the things I can do. I walk on the beaches on this tropical island, in the jungle, visit remote waterfalls and remote islands. Of course I take my son and dog with me. I am just trying to make the most out of a bad situation. Always look on the bright side of life.
Or should that be always look on the bright side of death?
You wouldn't want a holiday in my head lol.
I just live one day at a time, but accepting that CTB is not an option has made life easier.
Love n Light xx
