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Dutchyala

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Mar 6, 2021
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I just did the mix It was harder to mix with a spoon than I thought. I'm awkward even at this. Took a little in the finger to see the taste. Tastes just like salt for me. I'm feeling a little dizzy just with that. Taking paracetamol now.
 
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AtMostOkay

AtMostOkay

Screw your courage to the sticking place.
Jun 29, 2021
926
Safe travels, all peace to you xoxo
 
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aminend

Warlock
May 24, 2020
746
I just did the mix It was harder to mix with a spoon than I thought. I'm awkward even at this. Took a little in the finger to see the taste. Tastes just like salt for me. I'm feeling a little dizzy just with that. Taking paracetamol now.
I hope everything goes ahead completely peaceful for you
 
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rosie93

Student
Aug 28, 2021
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I just did the mix It was harder to mix with a spoon than I thought. I'm awkward even at this. Took a little in the finger to see the taste. Tastes just like salt for me. I'm feeling a little dizzy just with that. Taking paracetamol now.
<3
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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cantwaitbefree

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Sep 14, 2021
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wish you the best
 
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lostmyhope86

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Sep 14, 2021
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safe travel
 
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SadJessu

SadJessu

Just tired.
Aug 17, 2020
168
Wishing you peace and safe travels, whatever your decision.
 
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Dutchyala

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Mar 6, 2021
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Thanks everyone. My heart is beating fast idk if anxiety or Because I tasted it
 
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SadJessu

SadJessu

Just tired.
Aug 17, 2020
168
If you're feeling exceptionally anxious perhaps you should wait a while and calm down a bit, that way you know if it was just anxiety or the SN. You shouldn't have to CTB feeling anything but peaceful and calm.
 
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weallneedtovent

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Sep 6, 2021
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May god (if he exists) bless you in your passing. And well done for having the courage I severely lack.
 
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Dutchyala

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Mar 6, 2021
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Thank you. I'm going to take alprazolam soon after meto
Head aching but little
Taking meto
Xanax 2mg later more afraid of sleep before
Propanolol
 
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Forgotten

Student
Aug 19, 2020
129
Wishing you a smooth and peaceful journey. Hope you find the peace of you seek, best of luck.
 
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fruit-loops

Student
Jun 27, 2021
150
I'm so sorry you arrived a this point, I feel your pain and I wish you the best.
Please try to stay calm and be aware on this last moments.. A big big hug :heart:
 
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Dutchyala

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Mar 6, 2021
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Thank you so much for being here with me ❤️. Head still hurts but I'm calming down
If there is any kind of afterlife hope to see mom and dad again if not there is no loss
 
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fruit-loops

Student
Jun 27, 2021
150
Thank you so much for being here with me ❤️. Head still hurts but I'm calming down
You can bet on it, you are not alone :heart:
It's a pain that we can't have anyone physically with us in those moments, but at least we can try to to support each other virtually..
 
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Dutchyala

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Mar 6, 2021
73
Antiacid now
 
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BobMorane

wizard
Apr 20, 2021
162
Are you still among us ? How much propapronolol have you taken ?
Wish you a smooth transition
 
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Dutchyala

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Mar 6, 2021
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Just 200 mg
 
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Viral1233

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Aug 16, 2021
11
Goodluck on your CTB I hope it goes as smooth as possible! Are you going to keep updating after you take the SN?
 
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Dutchyala

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Mar 6, 2021
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Yes as long as possible no risk for the forum. I'm using anonymous tab so cookies are gone once closed and password on my phone.
Took antiacid ,an extra propanolol just in case. Soon will take more 6 mg of Xanax and drink it.

Feeling ok but head is hurting more. Nothing as bad though. Heart is not racing anymore might have been anxiety after all
Just to update before I will wash my mouth with mouth washing to help with taste. I will be using a stroll
Stomach is hurting after antiacid not sure if this is normal
Took more Xanax
It's time
Took it all. Tasted like very salty vwater but not as bas as I imagined
Very dizzy
 
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Cheza_mus

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Jul 1, 2021
242
Safe travels my friend...I am soon joining you
 
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phoenixx

Experienced
Apr 8, 2019
261
I wish you all the best, I hope you're able to find peace
 
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PinkSakura

PinkSakura

Rip Flower I'll never forget you </3 我想你花
Feb 8, 2021
137
❤️
 
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littlelungs

Wizard
Oct 21, 2018
646
I'm so sorry I missed you. :'( No matter where you are, I hope you're safe and at peace, my friend.
 
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MrOptions

Let it go. This to shall pass.
Jan 6, 2020
180
Peaceful transitions to you.
 
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stilldreaming

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Aug 30, 2021
103
Wishing you nothing but peace and happiness, even hope if that's what you want. I hope you get what you want and need x
 
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Midgardsorm

Paragon
Apr 28, 2020
917
I'm so sorry. I missed this, I couldn't say goodbye to you personally.

We talked yesterday, I wish we could chat a bit more.

May your light guide us from now on.
Rest in peace, friend.
 
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