Sometimes a simple exit is ok

[Essie]

The glass worries me, too. I do have other options though. I thought about using this particular door because the handle is massive, I doubt it would break. As for the knot, there is no way for it to slip off, I made sure of that. The upper edge of the door takes most of the weight. The handle is used to make sure the rope stays in place. I grabbed the rope with both hands and lifted myself off the floor, no problems there.

The rope is 12mm thick, do you think that's too much? I figured a somewhat thicker rope in combination with the turtle neck padding would put enough pressure on my carotids once my body slide towards the floor.

Thanks for the advice. I had no idea the cold would prolong the whole process. I know a few places with trees where I would not be discovered for a few hours. But again, as much as I dislike being found by a family member, there is something comforting about dying at my place.

I am not an expert, but I recall people saying 10mm is good, and that the thicker the rope, the harder it is to get pressure (I THINK)!

Yes, as for the cold for anyone in a colder climate, PLEASE be aware that any form of suicide outdoors would put you at a risk of not dying as fast as if in a warmer place. This is due to hypothermia-like reactions, which preserves the body. I have no idea what temps are safe, but have heard of numbers of people who were saved after up to 48 hrs, when otherwise they would have been dead. I nixed a plan to hang outside because of this--it's getting cooler out, but not near freezing yet, and I don't know if that would make it take longer. (Plus, I think neighbors could maybe hear if my body flails around.)

 

[Essie]

One more thing about that glass door, because it is bothering me for some reason. At least tape it, like thieves do before they break glass. If I remember correctly, making an "X" pattern will help it break better or quieter. Any pattern might do. Also, and this is a much better option, get window film. I have it on all my windows, but it was professionally installed and very pricey. However, I know they sell some at home improvement stores that is cheap. And it will prevent the glass from breaking. It is made for UV and heat retention, but it does keep the glass in place so the windows cannot be broken. A strip put down where you could hit it would help protect you in case it fails and then make it quieter if your body thrashes because the glass won't break. Either tape or film will make it a better door, in my opinion.

Edit to add: I didn't read this thread yet, so sorry if I am repeating anyone!

 

[Maree Cowan]

If you don't want the noose to loosen no matter what, then tie a hangman's noose. I have found that it works better than the normal slipknot. I can go into the details as to how it is better but I have explained that at many threads on this topic. Just try yourself.

 

[Maree Cowan]

I would like the more reliable hangmans knot but i dont think i can tie it standing on a bucket in the dark
Would a slipknot do the job
Thanks Maree