Sometimes a simple exit is ok

[Etanee]

So, this is how it's going to end for me.

A climbing rope with a simple slip knot should do the job. After watching the suicide video of that Swedish guy I decided that partial suspension is the way to go. My father hanged himself in a basement many years ago, however I don't have the details on how he did it exactly. The rope will tighten around my neck as I lower myself, and my behind will be about two feet above the floor. I will put on a turtle neck sweater to make it a bit less painful.

I'm not sure yet if I will do it at home, since that would mean a family member will discover my body. I do live alone, but my mother, my sister, and my stepfather all have keys to my place. There are plenty of trees with thick low branches around where I live. But the idea of sneaking out past midnight to hang myself in the cold, dark night fills me with deep sadness.

Any thoughts or suggestions about my setup? I appreciate any input.

 

[Essie]

I am not qualified to answer you really, because I am trying to sort the same thing out myself.

Your turtleneck idea is really good, though, and I will try that, I think. Any other padding I tried in tests was really awkward.

However, aren't you afraid that the convulsions once you go unconscious will break the glass? Or are you using a different door IRL? I see two main problems with this: 1) people might hear the glass break. If it is an exterior door, then neighbors or a passerby, and 2) cutting yourself in the event it fails for some reason.

One more thing I notice is that your noose knot looks quite different from my rope one--bulkier and more "complex"--though I do NOT have the proper rope yet, so mine is only 5-6mm now. (I have used other things for nooses as well, and they all give different looks.) Plus I think I am seeing a reflection or blur.

And one more thing I am trying to work out for myself that is the same for you is whether the door HANDLE will hold the other end, or might it slip off or break. My handles are interior and decorative, so it is a concern of mine.

Oh, and if it is too cold, I would not do it outside, because that can prolong how long it takes to die, thus making it more likely you could be rescued and saved.

I am interested in what others think.

 

[Final Escape]

Have some drinks beforehand if u can. But don't be totally wasted obviously.

 

[Donna]

Just wondering if you practiced?? As some people ( like me ) can't find the right spot on there neck ..

 

[tevati]

I say hanging on a tree is more reliable. If you can always favour full suspension over partial.

 

[Etanee]

IHowever, aren't you afraid that the convulsions once you go unconscious will break the glass? Or are you using a different door IRL? I see two main problems with this: 1) people might hear the glass break. If it is an exterior door, then neighbors or a passerby, and 2) cutting yourself in the event it fails for some reason.

One more thing I notice is that your noose knot looks quite different from my rope one--bulkier and more "complex"--though I do NOT have the proper rope yet, so mine is only 5-6mm now. (I have used other things for nooses as well, and they all give different looks.) Plus I think I am seeing a reflection or blur.

And one more thing I am trying to work out for myself that is the same for you is whether the door HANDLE will hold the other end, or might it slip off or break. My handles are interior and decorative, so it is a concern of mine.

Oh, and if it is too cold, I would not do it outside, because that can prolong how long it takes to die, thus making it more likely you could be rescued and saved.

The glass worries me, too. I do have other options though. I thought about using this particular door because the handle is massive, I doubt it would break. As for the knot, there is no way for it to slip off, I made sure of that. The upper edge of the door takes most of the weight. The handle is used to make sure the rope stays in place. I grabbed the rope with both hands and lifted myself off the floor, no problems there.

The rope is 12mm thick, do you think that's too much? I figured a somewhat thicker rope in combination with the turtle neck padding would put enough pressure on my carotids once my body slide towards the floor.

Thanks for the advice. I had no idea the cold would prolong the whole process. I know a few places with trees where I would not be discovered for a few hours. But again, as much as I dislike being found by a family member, there is something comforting about dying at my place.

 

[Etanee]

Just wondering if you practiced?? As some people ( like me ) can't find the right spot on there neck ..

Yes, I practiced. It took merely a few seconds for my vision to get weird. It wasn't uncomfortable or particularly painful either.

 

[Donna]

Yes, I practiced. It took merely a few seconds for my vision to get weird. It wasn't uncomfortable or particularly painful either.

Well your lucky as I said I can't find the sweet spot .

 

[ctoan]

send a timed email to authorities 1 day after suicide so no family members find you

 

[TTh]

This is how I'm going too but I think I'll start with the second position the swedish guy ended up in

 

[Virgo]

Wouldn't trust that setup. Seems like it could fail.

 

[Prime]

That glass can be trouble when you begin to convulse. I have practised extensively and have noted that convulsions are severe. The rope looks fine. The noose is also fine. Take some alcohol if you have access to it then give it a try when you are dead sure that you will not be interrupted for at least 12 minutes after you black out. Having the courage to do it counts more than the nitty gritty details. Its all fine if you can find the sweet spot for yourself. Once you find that you have to make sure that the rope remains there even after you go unconscious. To check this, deliberately go limp with the noose around the neck and see where it finally places itself on the neck. If its good, then you can attempt. In that Swedish guy's position I'd recommend tying your legs together with something. And put your hands in your pockets just before you black out. This should reduce the convulsions and thus reduce the chances of the loop misplacing itself and missing the carotids.
Hope it helps.

 

[Prime]

If you don't want the noose to loosen no matter what, then tie a hangman's noose. I have found that it works better than the normal slipknot. I can go into the details as to how it is better but I have explained that at many threads on this topic. Just try yourself.

 

[I’vehadenough]

The glass worries me, too. I do have other options though. I thought about using this particular door because the handle is massive, I doubt it would break. As for the knot, there is no way for it to slip off, I made sure of that. The upper edge of the door takes most of the weight. The handle is used to make sure the rope stays in place. I grabbed the rope with both hands and lifted myself off the floor, no problems there.

The rope is 12mm thick, do you think that's too much? I figured a somewhat thicker rope in combination with the turtle neck padding would put enough pressure on my carotids once my body slide towards the floor.

Thanks for the advice. I had no idea the cold would prolong the whole process. I know a few places with trees where I would not be discovered for a few hours. But again, as much as I dislike being found by a family member, there is something comforting about dying at my place.

What kind of knot are you using?

 

[Etanee]

What kind of knot are you using?

This is my knot. No idea what it's called though.

 

[Etanee]

If you don't want the noose to loosen no matter what, then tie a hangman's noose. I have found that it works better than the normal slipknot. I can go into the details as to how it is better but I have explained that at many threads on this topic. Just try yourself.

After practicing with this setup the slipknot was so tight around my neck that I struggled to get free. I don't think a hangman's noose is necessary.

 

[Etanee]

Once you find that you have to make sure that the rope remains there even after you go unconscious. To check this, deliberately go limp with the noose around the neck and see where it finally places itself on the neck. If its good, then you can attempt. In that Swedish guy's position I'd recommend tying your legs together with something. And put your hands in your pockets just before you black out. This should reduce the convulsions and thus reduce the chances of the loop misplacing itself and missing the carotids.
Hope it helps.

Thank you! That is great advice. It didn't even occur to me to put my hands in my pockets. I will go for another try soon.

 

[Lady black]

Just another question: Could you be seen from neighbours through the glass door if you hang there? And I´m also sure the glass would break.

 

[Etanee]

Well your lucky as I said I can't find the sweet spot .

I don't understand all this talk about the sweet spot. I think all it takes is determination. The Swedish guy had the right idea: "Just Do It!" Here's one of the pictures that I use as inspiration. It's no rocket science.

 

[Etanee]

Just another question: Could you be seen from neighbours through the glass door if you hang there? And I´m also sure the glass would break.

I want to do it in the dead of night, I doubt anyone would see me if I do it a few hours past midnight. Yeah, I have my doubts about that glass door, too. Maybe I'll just use a normal door, but I'm not sure about the door knobs...

 

[1234dave]

where can I access the video of the Swedish guy please

 

[Lady black]

Yes the door knobs today are not as sure as in the past, just try if they are strong enough by pulling on it

 

[Etanee]

where can I access the video of the Swedish guy please

I'm afraid I don't remember where I saw it. Just try a DuckDuckGo search with the filter turned off. "Swedish guy live suicide" or something along those lines. Here are two pictures from the video.

 

[Etanee]

Yes the door knobs today are not as sure as in the past, just try if they are strong enough by pulling on it

I just tried a different door. It was amazing. Three seconds after lifting me feet off the floor my left arm started tingling and I got dizzy. Afterwards every sound had an echo for a few seconds. I could have ended it right then and there.

 

[Lady black]

Looks perfect.So wish you a acomfortable hanging then and hope you find your peace

 

[1234dave]

I'm jealous of everyone who lives alone and can do it in their own time. I'm so mentally brain damaged I need care and have to do it in the woods at night.

 

[Donna]

I don't understand all this talk about the sweet spot. I think all it takes is determination. The Swedish guy had the right idea: "Just Do It!" Here's one of the pictures that I use as inspiration. It's no rocket science.

I'm sure your right I'm sure I just wasn't ready ,I was only practicing but I still only got the explosive head feeling .Im sure if it came down to it and I was completely ready to CTB it would happen .

 

[Donna]

Live leaks has live hanging videos.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I'm jealous of everyone who lives alone and can do it in their own time. I'm so mentally brain damaged I need care and have to do it in the woods at night.

How are you brain damaged?

 

[JosiahB]

"Death is for many of us the gate of hell;
but we are inside on the way out,
not outside on the way in."
~ George Bernard Shaw