raikko
Member
- Dec 21, 2025
- 15
I don't know what's going on w me anymore rly
When things were going great for me and I was receiving gifts and going on trips and going outside, I felt terrible and I cried a lot when I was alone.
Now, I've ruined my relationship with my friend because of a non-issue I decided to overinflate because I don't know, and I spend all my days in my room and I only spend time talking to my online friends, and I feel just fine. I can't cry or be sad no matter how much I want to, I can scratch myself and wish and fantasise about my death all I want but I can never get myself to cry or actually get that sinking, painful feeling in my chest whenever I do genuinely actually feel terrible.
I hate myself so much. I wish I could have the courage and the will to just lie down on the train tracks or hang myself as I so dream about. I'm going to go out and buy shampoo later, and have tonkatsu curry or something I don't know. I really do hope I get run over by a truck or something. I want to die I just want to die I hate myself.
that's rlly it lols :3
When things were going great for me and I was receiving gifts and going on trips and going outside, I felt terrible and I cried a lot when I was alone.
Now, I've ruined my relationship with my friend because of a non-issue I decided to overinflate because I don't know, and I spend all my days in my room and I only spend time talking to my online friends, and I feel just fine. I can't cry or be sad no matter how much I want to, I can scratch myself and wish and fantasise about my death all I want but I can never get myself to cry or actually get that sinking, painful feeling in my chest whenever I do genuinely actually feel terrible.
I hate myself so much. I wish I could have the courage and the will to just lie down on the train tracks or hang myself as I so dream about. I'm going to go out and buy shampoo later, and have tonkatsu curry or something I don't know. I really do hope I get run over by a truck or something. I want to die I just want to die I hate myself.
that's rlly it lols :3
